I was up all night crying again
And it isn't the pain in my chest that bothers me
It's the fact that I'm so used to tasting my own tears
that i could recognize them in an ocean

I know it may seem  pretentious now and then
but i'll close my eyes and pretend
that i can feel your lips upon my face
that i know how you taste
cuz darling even though i cant have you here
i know there's nothing to fear
But without you it hurts to sleep
Give me your heart to keep
I'll lock it up inside my head
and act like it doesn't make me feel dead
that i have to read your words
instead of hear your voice
and i know it's not like i really have a choice
but if i did
i'd listen to you speak for hours
and with our love we could build mountains, towers
so just know
even though we can't touch or feel
even though I'm way over here
i still love you all the same
and nothing, NOTHING
is gonna change that

Because
I feel sick to my stomach
Because
My mom isn't going to let me stay home
Because
She cares more about what the school says than how her daughter feels

I have butterflies
But they aren't the cute kind
No
They feel like hell
Like when someone unexpectedly touches your stomach
And it feels like it turns inside out
That's what I have
(all the time)

I just needed extra love today
but there was no one around to give it
and i realized that's my life
I am the one who gives extra love
Not the one who gets extra love given to her