I want to believe you don't think of her
but sometimes,
you bring her up.

It's not that we can't talk about it
but it may be
more often than I'd like.

Then again,
you tell me things,
everything,
and it makes it
okay.

Because at the end of the day,
I know
you love
me
more than you ever could have loved
her.

Here, but not really
Only half awake
Stuck in a rut
day after day

Dealing in unspeakable ways
no way to get out
I don't want to do what they say
I just want to leave.

Hes the only reason to stay
but should that be enough?

In the morning when I wake
I know that you've been thinking of me

But from you never could I take
the love that you have given to me

I used to say I couldn't do it
I took the time to realize
I loved you daily, all the way through it
And now you won't open up your eyes

Numb,
      Detached,
                 Alone,
I cry when nobody can hear me.

Fear,
      Pain,
          Confusion,
I don't feel when I cry.

Sorrow,
       Sharp,
              Stabbing,
I cry until I no longer can.

Search,
       Help,
           Lost,
When I cry I feel alone.

Death,
      Loss,
            Gone,
I feel guilty when I cry.

Him,
    Savior,
            One,
He comforts me when I cry.

Stop,
     Calm,
        Breathe,
He loves me when I cry.

Grey

     Dull

           White

                  Blinding

floating flakes

     Flitting down

           Ice peltiing

                Nothing melting

Left

    Right

          Left

               Winds pull the trees

Drifting
          
        Leaning

             Fading

I fade back into my dreams

Seeing shadows which have fled,
Nothing's underneath my bed,
Darkness crawls around my feet,
They all laugh and think i'm sweet.