There are a thousand things I can possibly say
A thousand things that roam freely through my head
With all this pain, the endless nightmares that haunt me in my dreams
As I play this stupid *** game life forces upon me
It’s hard, life just isn’t fair
It possesses me, corrupting the way I think
Destroying my sense of awareness as I burn attempting to hang onto my sanity
I feel weak crawling upon the floor made entirely of dead corpses
The thought of death dances in my head as my mortal self fades from existence
Who am I, why do I exist
Why does it feel as if a dagger is piercing my inner soul
I feel like a bird with clipped wings
Standing here watching a part of me fly off into the distant winds
I can’t be alone, there is no way that this is where I was meant to perish
There has to be a way out out of this dark hole
There has to be, there has to be, there has to be, there has to be
There has to be, right?
Why wouldn’t there be
I’m going to die here aren’t I?
No, I’m going to survive
But if I don’t allow me to at least go out with a smile

What kind of sorcery is this?
This is madness I swear
Every time you walk by you take my soul along with you
Every time you speak my mind goes boom, causing my entire vocabulary to burn to ashes, leaving me with nothing
My heart just stops
As my eyes gaze upon the sunset over the horizon
Well, that is what they see, but in actuality it is just you
A bright new star over the midnight sea
And just like the legend of the Phoenix
Where we end it is where we begin it
Leaving the old chapter of our lives behind and starting anew
You know a life where it is not just you then there is I
But me and you
This was just a dream I had, ya know
But instead of just resting on this dream, I really want to make it reality
So this is me asking you no, begging you to be mine tonight
And every night to come

You're always running away
Running never looking the other way
But what are you running from
Are you really that afraid of the pain that you try your best to disappear from society
As if society is the source of your true sorrow
As if the pain is not an inner sensation that erupts in your heart
Where are you going to go anyways
Aren't you tired of always running away
Don't you want to run towards something for a change
Have something other than yourself to love and cherish
I can see that look in your eyes
That look of emptiness and dispair
"Stop hurting yourself",they yell
Just stop and turn around
There is nothing chasing you away but you're still afraid
What are you afraid of, yourself?
You use to be stronger than this
Always running towards danger to protect those you loved
Now you're just a shell of your former self
SNAP OUT OF IT ALREADY!
Stop running
It's going to be okay

How the hell did we end up in this place
Hiding behind walls waiting for the other to take the first shot
What brothers we turned out to be
It’s tragic really, we use to be bestfriends
Had each others back through thickness and thin
Now it just seems like we are trying to drown one another in a pool of the others blood
It is so funny how life turned out this way
And it is not like we have changed as people
In fact, nothing changed
We just simply grew apart both going our separate ways
Now we are just like oil and water
Well, actually we were always like oil and water
Looking into our past we have never agreed upon anything
Always debating every thought that crossed the other’s mind
I kind of miss those days
So you know what...
I surrender, just pull the ******* trigger
End this stupid *** ******* between the two of us
This pain is something I cant do anymore,
Pull the ******* trigger already
I just want my ******* brother back
But it is clear things between us will never be the same
So if I cannot have him back in this world,
Maybe I can in the next
...I love you bro

They call me Dr.Strange because I don't thrive from the same ambition as the rest of my generation
I don't desire to **** every **** thing that walks and breathes
I was never a fan of getting high and skipping school
Hell the worse I've done is beat a ngga's *** for making a girl bleed
Yeah I'm so ******* hood, badass if you would  
A permant resident of wish a ***** woods
Where we specialize in the art of whoop ***
But at the same time I am kind
As gentle as a cotton ball
I will protect those who cannot protect themselves
Instead of being that coward who is left asking what if
But don't get my kindness twisted thinking you can trample all over my tiny self
Stomping me into the ******* ground as if I'm some type seed
But if you still have the urge to try me get this image in your head
I will make sure my weeded foot travels up your *** and out  of your mouth
I will not be afraid to rain down the scorching sensation of the hurt all over your flesh and bones
Causing you to sprout like a ******* bean stock as I just smile walking the opposite way
It is sad ****** these days try so hard to pretend to be all bad-***, talking so much **** I don't know whether to give them tissue or breath mint
Then what makes it even funnier they beat on these young girls thinking it makes them look tough
But in actuality it makes them look that much more of a ******* to society
**** is this really what male *** have come down to
A mere nuisance to society
A nation of fuckboys and male hoes
Is that what we are really aiming for
sigh wow I wonder what I'll have for dinner tonight

I have been marooned in this ****** up place for 13 years
Ever since I was 5 when I first tried to survive
But only ended up dying in the firey pitts of hell
Got shot twice in the chest and once in the head
As I drowned in a pool of my conscious blood
I can feel the walls coming down upon me
The ground collapsing beneath me
So I scream at the top of my lungs for help
But no one ever comes or they do but just stare
As I cried blood tears from my jet black eyes
Why won't you help me
You see me struggling to gasp for air but you just stare
For what...sigh
My life is ****** up but I don't want to die
Though to the world I already have,in my mind I am still alive
Can't you see that I am trying to smile
Trying to not cry anymore
I just really want to survive this cold war
Please allow me to experience no more