I wrote this for you

I'd be lying if I said you're most beautiful I've ever seen
I'd be lying if I told said you're the smartest girl I know
I'd be lying if I said I didn't have any other choice but you
But you see the way love is set up...

It was something about the way you talked
The way you walked
The way you thank
The way you believed
How you were so optimistic about every little thing

It was your smile that sparked this raging fire that burns in my soul
Your eyes that nurtured the flame that could of easily went out of control
Your personality that kept dragging me back to beg for more
It was just you, something I could bare forevermore

I have watched from the moon scanning the earth a thousand times
Attempting to find the perfect girl to call my own
But every girl I thought to be the one just stomped on me
As if I was nothing more than duck tape to cover their wounds

But not you...
You made me realize a new truth
Uncovered a hidden path that was right in front of me
Made me believe that I actually had a future

When with you it felt as if my eyes were open for the first time
As if I were flying in the wind with snow white wings
I actually felt free from the chains society placed upon me
No cage could ever hold me again

So I ask now with great pride and dignity
Would you spend the rest of your life with me
As husband and wife
As one being

For sixteen years I wondered what it was like to have a father
For sixteen years I would stare at the stars wondering if one was even assigned me
For sixteen years I walked through the park only to see children laugh and play with their parents
For sixteen years...
I felt alone and confused
As I attempted to understand what it meant to be a man
I had no one to to call father and no one to look up to
While it seemed the rest of the world had everything I ever asked for
I would end up asking myself why did my father abandoned me
Why was he so enraged by my very existence he never showed his face to me
Why didn't he love me
Why...
I remember the day he walked through the front door
Full of so much joy I was, but angry
I took a quick glance at him wondering where had he been all this time
Why now did he decide to show himself
But still a part of me did not care
All that matter to me is that finally did
My head filled itself with so many questions of what it meant to be a man
But I was too afraid to ask them
Now I look back and think how naive I was
I was blinded from the truth by pure excitement
I mean I finally wasn't alone
But now I'm just angry by him existing
All he does is lie, cheat, and steal
Silly me for thinking he could save me
Now I just want him gone and for things to go back to the way they use to be
The way it was for sixteen years
Sixteen years of hell for me
But I still smiled because I had a mother who loved me
For sixteen years I lived without him and now...
Well now I can live without him for all eternity

You tell me not be afraid
But for what reason do I have not to be
The world is in gulped in flames
The sun has been blocked out by its midnight counterpart
Why shouldn't I be afraid
It's the apocalypse can't you tell
We're all gonna die a painful death
I don't wanna die
I'm not ready to face what's after this world
The stars shine purple, as the darkness corrupt their minds
The trees are crying shaking in terror
And yet you just smile,
Holding me telling me everything is going to be okay
Your warmth calms me
I don't know what it is cause I can feel your heart
It's beating so fast,so I know you're scared  
Yet you smile telling me everything is going to be okay
Is this really the power a mother holds
I now know what must be done
No longer can I be afraid
I must protect you  
Just like you protected me all these years
I love you mom,
And no matter what emotion I may ever feel...
That is one thing that won't ever change

I'm a nice guy
A jolly one in fact
But it seems only my emotions of hatred make it to the outside world
Caging my smile in a dark barrier of misconception
Giving off this false impression that I am a demoned eyed beast
But I am here, somewhere beneath this hollowed mask
I am here laughing,singing,playing, waiting for the day I shall be released from this barless cage
But until that day I am just here
And believe me the day is rapidly approaching
I can feel it coursing through my veins
The pure joy pumping in my skin
Freedom is nearly here
After all these years
But my tactics will not change
I shall sit here silently looking into the outside world,
Awaiting my turn to bath in its glorious rays