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Sir B Jan 2014
Learned so much more today
haha
fluke of conversation
turned out to be worth it

you.
have
in the end
been better than I have
survived more
endured more

ha.
i thought i was
the one in peril
no
I misunderstood

I never even
paid
or gave
anything to you

i didn't promise to help
didn't follow through anything
hurt you more

just,
all the more reason for
me to apologize to you

ooh, I don't like the feel of this
I should have realized
i didn't

Apologies

**Sincerest Apologies
Yes, you would know on instance its about you, written on the night of 6th January 2014 at 23:01 (finished). Sincerest Apologies and I cannot do this enough. So much hurt and pain, and discomfort. I.. have forever hurt myself now, and you too. Apologies.
Sir B Jan 2014
Eh
Sorry for the lack of anything.
I am going crazy
you know
new year
and other fun stuff
:)



Enjoy your year










The page is 1/365
Write a new story worth reading. I promise it will be interesting, and also trudge through another year again, please. Don't **** yourself. I know i want to. But, again. I made it through you can as well. So, please. Go onwards to glory and live another year! *DO EET!!!
How ****** evil am I you ask. Oh you know. Not much... definitely not much.
Sir B Dec 2013
'Twas a good game
But now I
MUST LEAVE

Goodbye and ***** you for tricking me.
You will pay, but not yet
Pained hurt everything you can think of that sad and evil… I will be leaving poetry and quit being on these accounts. If you would like to know my new and other account which might come alive. Ask, otherwise, patience.… it'll get you very far in life
Sir B Dec 2013
My shadow should be
proud of me
because I have done good things
Like
Write poetry
And
Fall in love with amazing people
Who did break my heart
But it doesn't matter really
I am not a likable person
Done just as many stupid things
Like
Try to **** myself
But hey
It doesn't matter
Sometimes, time hates us
Sometimes it doesn't
And sometimes
You gotta do it to relieve yourself

So in the end
My shadow should be proud of me
For I have done
Things which are stupid and things which
Are intelligent
So shadow please
Be proud of me
And don't leave me here alone
So yea. Wrote it while sitting in a car to DC. Hope ya'll are having a wonderful day... See you guys later.




PS - Thanks for the all the support. VERY MUCH appreciated
Sir B Dec 2013
have i found you?
have i finally found love?
after a long time of nothingness
is this it?

a person
who actually sees the true me?
a person who gives me butterflies,
when I talk to them
someone I can take to the Netherlands with me?
Or just talk about the most random things
and it would still be okay

Have I found thee?
Or am I hallucinating?
I feel like I found you
A magnificent person
An indescribable human being
With great intelligence
Who enjoys being themselves
And doesn't mind talking to a lame kid
I think you are it
I feel like I found someone
To obsess over
Just wrote something to ease myself off of the headache and to focus on the better things in life... Have a nice vacation everyone! :)
Sir B Dec 2013
Tired of keeping everything
inside of me
this is annoying
and just wrong
in so many ways.

I would like to tell you
but i dont think i will be able to
because you are so perfect
in your own world
that i fear my intrusion
of problems and worries
will destroy your wonders
hence, i refuse to tell you
not about anything else either
just, the fact
that your wonderful world
will be in broken pieces
should i share my worries and problems

Its too much to keep inside though
and people tell me to get help from you
and i try
I honestly try
but.
I cannot bring myself to tell you about it
no matter the amount of persuasion
done by the girl i have a lot of crush on
it wont bring me to a conclusion
of sharing my distant and evil plans
with you and your wonderful world
that i occasionally peek into
to try to replicate

but, as previously said
I am unable to do it
because of my ineptness
of doing anything
A person, tells me to share my depression and similar thoughts with my best friend.. I can't bring myself to it. As previously mentioned even if he is my best friend. I don't want to ruin it for him as well. I know for a fact that he will have a tougher time handling it than I do, and I fear everything that happens during the therapy and things alike. Apologies if you, best friend, read it.
Sir B Dec 2013
I haven't done
anything
that I like or love
in so long
it feels like an eternity

I don't know
and have forgotten
what it even feels like
being in love anymore
its that bad.

Do you still get butterflies
in your stomachs?
Does their image keep haunting you?
(In a good way)
What exactly happens anymore?

So lost,
and unloved
that I am feeling sorry for myself.
Apologies for writing a poem, not really a poem. Just something I realized was wrong with me when reading "The Fault in Our Stars" by John Green. I just found out and realized that I don't understand what love feels like. Feel sorry for myself..
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