stars fall to my lap
dimensions fading away
my galaxy dies

Do you have food on your plate?
Do you have clothes on your skin?
Are your decisions left to fate?
Do you fear the life you're in?

Do you speak your loudest thoughts?
Do you have books to read? 
Do you even know the alphabet?
Are you always left to bleed?

Do you hide to pray at night?
Are beaten to your flesh?
Do you rub your skin white?
Do you have the freedom to express?

Many questions you ask ..
Many answers you seek ..

But it has always been one question ..
Is this humanity you see?

I feel like ...

All the poetry in the world has been shattered
All the poets have gone mute
All the stanzas have been dismantled
All the rhyming words are in dispute

I’m an alphabet of one letter
Choking on faded words
I’m suffocating on alliterations
Black bruises and broken back bones

It’s almost like my pulse is dropping syllables
17 … 7 … 5 … 3 …
Empty pages of lost haikus
As flat lines race death to flee

This broken heart weeps of hurt -
Of false promises, of wounded memories
My broken heart weeps of hurt
As my mourning tears fall into elegies

I'm a nomad
I travel
from one thought
to another

I don't stay there for long
Each thought passes me
along to the other
and so on 

A trace
of a thin line
is always left behind
as I'm being passed over
And a spider web
of entangled lines
starts to form
amongst all those thoughts

Then I end up strangled 

Feelings start turning
into thoughts
and thoughts turn
into words
and words become
louder
and stronger


Suddenly
awareness arises


Doors
deep down the dungeons
of my head are
beginning to unlock themselves

I'm not fighting it
Not anymore

Acceptance
starts flowing within
Whilst the web
untangles
its innermost thoughts

Does it sting you?
The way I look at you
Because baby, you’re like alcohol
to my bleeding cuts
whenever you look at me

Do my kisses revive your being?
Because baby,
your kisses only **** me
as I inhale the traces
of nicotine in your breath

Do our songs make you yearn
for my fingertips
caressing your hands
as we drive into the night?
Because baby,
my internals screech
for your touch
Baby, I hate our songs

Do you feel yourself suffocating
every night?
As I step out
when you drop me off
Because baby,
I feel myself falling
out of your skyscrapers
and into the cold abyss
of black skies

Does the word goodbye
asphyxiate your lungs
as you enunciate it?
Because baby,
my lungs collapse
as my ribcage closes in
to hug them when
your hugs are no longer there
to contain me

Yes
I exaggerate
in the ways that I miss you

Yes
It hurts me
the way I love you

So let us say our goodbyes already

Baby please
just go