Her hopes and dreams
Always lay in
One day
The day she gets out
The day she finds salvation
So she became a runner
Every hurdle every mountain
She ran through every fire
Seeking happines
Pursuing freedom
Everytime she thought she had it
Suddenly
It would explode before her very eyes
Without reason
Without fault
Everyone and everything was always out to get her
But one day perhaps not today
I'll be strong she'd say
I'll be happy and free
Independent and me
Until time slowed her down
And running was no longer an option
One day
Not today
But perhaps a day
Where only my body remains
My mind will cease
I'll stop running
There would be nothing to flee
When she speaks of that day
Not a grimace on her face
Nor a tear in her eye
No
She awaits it like prayer to be answered
With hope
With love
Like a sure solution
To this damnation

It's a cold and lonely place
Hard and merciless
Unforgiving and cruel
But most of all numb
With darkness
No pain
No pleasure
Certainly not any care
We're like peas in a pod
But that's all we share

She ran with fury at her feet
Like ghouls chase her
Her punches diligent
Sharp words nipped my skin
Her eyes shot daggers
This girl
Was a force to be reckoned with
Sky high walls of indifference
She protected herself like a maximum security prison
But at the bar
I'd seen the silence
Race down her cheeks
I saw the way she pulled her sleeves over her fingers
She hugged me tight
Then turned away like a stranger
Her eyes skimmed over to me
One last time
And I stood alone
Staring after her
Like a devotee in the wine cellar
So I drank
Like a ruined man
A man who set himself on fire
Made an enemy out of everything that was not her
I drowned myself in liquor
Until death came knocking
But even that couldn't pull me away
For she sat in every vein

My knees kissed the ground
So many years of ignorance
And it was the first time God spoke to me
I held onto you
Both arms and legs
Wrapped around like I could hold you
Tight
Close
Forever in my arms
As long as I could feel you
You would be here with me
I buried my face into your hair
Let my lips touch your neck
I squeezed you and felt you burrow closer
Your fingers pressed into my back
I felt your soft shallow breaths in my ear
We left no space for anyone to come between us
To try and part us
Until you became limp like a ragdoll
My lips felt cold against your skin
I felt heavy with dead weight
Your name poured out my eyes
Then they came to take the body away
And you slipped right through my fists

God

He must exist
You were mine
But you always belonged to him

We were hopeful fools
To think that your broken could heal mine
To want eachother to be our reason for life
To explore the ruins of our souls
And try to turn ashes into treasure
We were infatuated with the geography of our scars
How truly delirious we were
To try and make them a gallery of art
There are wounds inside of us
Far more painful than anything that ever bleeds
We have shadows that cling to our skins
Like a rotten stench
Yet here we sit
Like flies
King of the dump
Scuttling in search of happy endings