I am laughing,
not beautiful,
tears squeezed out,
snorting and hiccupping
as I gasp for breath.
Perhaps it is beautiful
for its truth.

Sailing
faster and faster,
faster than I can
think
or breathe
or scream
to the dusty corners of the universe.

He swears
his eyes are mysterious
and I peer into them
to check,
but I know
they are not
for I fear the unknown.

Mid-air,
questioning
and pulling back
to save myself
but it is too late,
I have
lost control.

He watches
as I sit on the floor
singing loudly
as if I were alone.
Then
he joins in
and I am not alone.

Where am I going
What am I doing
Who
even
am I
If only
I knew...

Sunshine
and fingers laced together,
I smile
a small, small
smile
and give in.
He smiles back.

In this world
people are nothing.
Less than nothing.
Nothingless.
But he whispers
in my ear
and I am something.

I care too much what others think of me.
Why
I don't know
I can't change.

I love you.
Those three words didn't mean a thing,
I thought we were meant to be,
But I guess it was just a fling,
There's a wall around my heart, stopping me from crying,
But there's something inside of me,
That feels like it's dying.
You were everything, I needed, care for,
I chose you, but now my heart is sore,
You will never realize, that you were my best friend too,
but believe me when I say this,
I really did love you.