When you're dead, does it really mean you're gone?
Does it mean I'll never see you again?
Does it mean i will never hear your voice, full of love and protection?
When you're dead
Do you still see me?
Do you watch over me?
Can you hear my thoughts?
Can you hear me pleading for you?
When you're dead
Does it really mean your gone?
Do you still think about me?
Care about me?
Will you still be my best friend?
When you're dead
Does it really mean you're never coming back?
Never going to be there to run to,
Never going to be able to hug or love again
When you're dead
Can you hear my cries?
See the tears that fill my eyes?
Can you see the longing in my heart to know that you're okay?
To know that you are no longer in pain.
When you're dead
Does it really meant that you are gone?

So many new things
Mostly beautiful
Some not so much
Still everything has changed my life
But one thing stands out more than the rest
Something I have never had before
Like a new support
Making me feel stronger
Blowing like the wind
Cold and strong
Putting out the fire
Removing the pain that had once covered my heart
Breaking down the walls,
that once protected it
But wanting to open up
Reaching into the darkness
and taking the soothing hand
knowing that good lies on the other end
Wanting to give in and let it all be okay
But so scared that with a single slip up
it will all go away
Pulling back
Staying in between the layers of strength and comfort
and familiarity of darkness and hiding
The fire causing more pain on some days then on others
Some days I reach out and take the hand
not quit fallowing but excepting the fact
I have a choice
Other days I curl up in the darkness
Feeling the burn more inside
Melting my heart like a candle
But instead of it falling into the darkness and disappearing
Something catches it
Holding it
Molding it into something
Something new
Something better
Something stronger
Looking up
it;s not just an outstretched hand anymore
A person
reaching out
Pulling me to my feet
Pulling me out of the darkness
Pulling me into a hug
Into a new place
A happier place
A feeling I've never felt before
The love of a dad
So strong
So patient
So much more then I could ever ask for.

Falling, crashing down
As my world falls apart
It all begins to change
Everything that once was, is gone
The laughter of children
The chirping of birds singing their songs
under the warm summer sun
GONE
Darkness blankets the sky
Taking the sun away
The laughter and songs fall silent
The warm summer day
Turns to a chilly fall night
Watching it all disappear
In the place I once called home
All gone up in flames
A place once full of love and happiness
Where two best friends once played dress up
and told stories about their future prince charming
Where brother and sister once played games
A mother and daughter with a bond so strong
You never thought they could be separated
Watching a family
So close fall so far apart
When  the place they once called home
Came crashing down

A life full of ups and downs
Heartbeats and heartbreaks
Two paths born to cross
Best friends, sisters
Two hearts beat
Two lives lived
Just for a few moments together
Then separating again
Hope and prayer to one day be reunited forever
Tear filled eyes
Full of joy and sadness
Looking down
Wanting to protect her from the pain you know and feel
But knowing you can't
Smiling through the pain so she won't see
Her looking up to see you standing strong knowing somethings wrong
Not understanding but knowing she is not alone
A connection
A bond that will never break
Together you stand strong and weather the storms
Together you show the world your love
Together you are sisters
Two lives born to live life together
The lives of two separate people made to love and care for the other

Feeling the whole world crashing down
Spiraling out of control
Where did the time go
All those days spent under the sun
Melting away like the snow
So many thoughts and all I can say is
"I don't know"
I don't know you I don't know me
It's like we are living in a tragedy
Full of smiles and fake faces
Lies and defeat
Just tell me why did you cheat
Life maybe be just a game
But who are we to blame when we tear everything down using our own two hands
Who are we to say that someone else is at fault
When we can't even figure out what's right and what's wrong
Because when it's wrong you think it's okay because it feels so right, so freeing
But you step out and try to do the right thing the true thing and get shot down and shamed so you think it's wrong you doubt yourself you try to redo what has already been done
But listen can you hear it
A voice saying resist give it all to me
Can't you see that your not alone that you can stand up
Just turn around and shut up
Look into the sky because he did not just die
He gave his life a living sacrifice
Because he knew that one day you would need a helping hand that you would need someone to help you take a stand. So listen to me and take his hand there is a place he has promised were we will never stand alone..