So many new things
Mostly beautiful
Some not so much
Still everything has changed my life
But one thing stands out more than the rest
Something I have never had before
Like a new support
Making me feel stronger
Blowing like the wind
Cold and strong
Putting out the fire
Removing the pain that had once covered my heart
Breaking down the walls,
that once protected it
But wanting to open up
Reaching into the darkness
and taking the soothing hand
knowing that good lies on the other end
Wanting to give in and let it all be okay
But so scared that with a single slip up
it will all go away
Pulling back
Staying in between the layers of strength and comfort
and familiarity of darkness and hiding
The fire causing more pain on some days then on others
Some days I reach out and take the hand
not quit fallowing but excepting the fact
I have a choice
Other days I curl up in the darkness
Feeling the burn more inside
Melting my heart like a candle
But instead of it falling into the darkness and disappearing
Something catches it
Holding it
Molding it into something
Something new
Something better
Something stronger
Looking up
it;s not just an outstretched hand anymore
A person
reaching out
Pulling me to my feet
Pulling me out of the darkness
Pulling me into a hug
Into a new place
A happier place
A feeling I've never felt before
The love of a dad
So strong
So patient
So much more then I could ever ask for.