I'm sorry
I'm sorry for being so **** selfish,
But you would be too
If you had someone who defined every single thing for you
Or someone that you see little bits of
In every person that crosses your path.
And it's even worse when you don't get a real goodbye
Because it gives you hope.
And hope is a strong concept.
Hell, it's the only thing stronger than fear.
It seems this hope is eating away
At the little common sense I have left,
Crushing every sane thought I have.
And I'm pretty ****** about
Letting this hope sit in my heart
Like a fire I should've stomped out
The moment I met you.

And baby,
Ill apologize when you finally spot my flaws.
A little mole on my side,
The rough of my feet,
The divot in my jaw.
Youll say theyre nothing,
And you say youll love me more.
But will you?
Will you be able to,
When theres nothing left to adore?
Will you when you see
The invert of my hips,
The cracks on my lips?
The scars on my legs and shoulders,
The tears that turn to boulders?
A chunk of missing flesh in my left thigh,
The way my light breath can turn to a heavy sigh?
The already forming wrinkles,
The way that I cry,
And how my nose crinkles?
The sensitivity of my eyes,
The part of me that has already died?
My ability to stand tall,
How easy it is for me to break and fall?
When you realize all of this...
Will you still be here for the long haul?