I need you
Fill me let me take you into me
Craving something deeper
Sweeter than this toxic antidote you are giving me
Overdose on those feel good lies
Though here I am walking around full of lifeless nothing
Resuscitated by the very essence you leave on my soul
So fragile this heart of mine has become
Just a regular ******
Love is my drug
You are my dealer
Addicted...

I danced with the devil many nights
Spotlight cast on the dancefloor of my empty soul
Many knew I loved him well
Cause I looked beyond​ the flaws
Found beauty in your difference
Yet what hurt me was that you were me
An angel that lost your way...

Went to sleep with the night wrapped me in a dream
Spoke softly in my ear
Told me things I wanted to see
Danced the danced of a million smiles
Perfection truly
Wishes to feel like this forever
But then I awoke
Hello reality
Life isn't always a dream now is it..

I paced the floors
So long so hard
Until my bare feet bled red
Fingernails scratching at my chest
Trying to claw out this beating thing inside me
My thoughts ran rampant
Over thinking over contemplating
Just over it
All these words mean nothing
Actions show differently

I let you see my secrets
Lick my scars
******* wounds
Became a reason for being
A glimmer of hope in a dark room where I stood alone
Unlocked the most vulnerable part of my soul
You held that key
You knew and saw the real me
Yet and still you left...
Became just like the rest if not worse
Dear universe what a curse it is...
Now I have to make a new key...

I hear your feelings
I see your words
There was a time I knew you well
Now we're familiar enemies
Strangers even
I loved you more than the air
More than the blood that creeps in my veins
You were me
Not so long ago
My heart now frozen in time
Lost in this labyrinth
Paralyzed by the thought of loving you again
Just leave me present alone in the past
We have no future

Loved a man
Danced countless nights between sheets
Drenched in the sweat from the lust we made
Gave years
Gave life
Took trust
Paid with my soul
I loved this man
Now I don't know who he is
Giving what was once sacred away so freely
Now she and she and her knows my lust
My pleasure my pain my love
And all I have left with him is years....
I've paid enough