All I know is that my love for you is true
I can't hardly do anything; I hate this aching
It's kind of cliché but my heart only beats for you
I've been asking God for help, I've been praying
If you love me please don't leave me
and I promise I'll change my ways
You promised me flowers, but all that's here is rain
But if rain means I have to drown
And drowning meant to die,
I would do it a thousand times over
And I’d wait for you in the sky

You're so beautiful it makes my soul feel warm and brand new
Every time I look up at the stars, or ocean, or the sunrise and sunset --
Constant déjà vu
I know that we've held hands before and loved
Because a feeling like this isn't made in one lifetime
Our love is forever wise, way more than us my dear
Our plan was carefully designed
I swear it teaches us everyday

I'm sorry I'm fcking crazy
know I got issues
But I wouldn't be okay if I wasn't with you
Thank God everyday even when I feel like crying
Baby when you're next to me I feel like I'm fking flying
It's a little scary, I'll be the first to admit
It f**king scares me
I hate to commit
Please don't leave me, please promise me that
Feeling like you're whack,
sometimes wondering why you don't hit me back

You say you love me, need me
Can't live without me
I can lie too baby guess you don't really know me
Wish it could've worked but I don't regret that it didn't

Sometimes you're meant to know pain before you feel bliss

Tripping in my head
I only want you in my bed
Make me sweat, feel your drip
I'm buzzing baby don't f**k up my trip

Sitting watching TV
Wishing these tears didn't fall
Cause I thought they never would
Why can't we ever seem to be fine for more than 10 seconds
Wondering where you are, you always keep me guessing
Remember how it felt the first night you touched me,
felt like my heart was exploding
Baby I just need you to love me
and the fact that sometimes you can so easily leave
eats at me completely
I'm sorry I always wear this heart of mine on my f**king sleeve
Just wanna lay on you and feel you breathe
Yeah you give me breath
But sometimes it feels like I'm suffocating

so I find
the most bitter things I can
to get your taste out of my mouth --
coffee, whiskey, a cigarette
crush you up, fill my lungs with smoke
in hopes to breathe you out
but there you are
the stain, the hangover, the hole you burnt
forever ingrained in my mind
f**king with my head

they say you run from love when you feel you don't deserve it
or when who it is coming from, reflects the parts of yourself
that you are too scared to look at
in your own shattered glass mirror
that you only ever so occasionally take a glimpse through --
by piecing the shards together, stained by the same blood
that once decorated your hands

maybe some day

Sit with me
You don't have to talk, just breathe.
Allow yourself to feel
To cry, to hurt, to sting
But remember all that you feel
Is not all that you are.
So smile,
let go
The pain is behind you,
It does not lead you.
Sometimes it's blinding
To show you that your eyes
Are not needed to show the way.

So please sit with me,
We don't have to talk
Just breathe.

If I could
Take all of the pain away
And store it within myself
Keep it locked away, so that it can't be felt
I would.
If I could
Make it so that your eyes
So beautiful, so sweet
So delicate
Would never have to, or need to, shed a tear
I would.
If I could
Bury the doubt
The sadness, the guilt
The anger
So deep so that it can never be found
I would.
If I could
Exchange your lens for mine
And have you view yourself from my world
So that you never have to look at yourself differently,
Only divine;
I would.

It’s odd to hear the birds
and to have the sun shine down
because it never changes.
Everyday a new chaos is introduced
yet the consistency of the Earth is a familiar acquaintance.

He’s never called me names,
but his uncertainty hurts the most
Eyes straight ahead --
we see through each other.
Intense stares turn
locked to the floor, sideway glances
stop acting childish.
We can’t help it.
My words burned your skin,
but you manage to cover it.
Your words cut my body,
permanent scars remain.

Take me to the seaside
We can talk it all out
While the salt sticks to your skin
The azure waves matching your eyes
Let’s walk to the meadow
And lay upon the grass,
Your fingers interlocking mine.

--

He brought her to the seaside
on a day in December
the salt stuck to her skin --
He’ll always remember.

Azure waves matched the hue of his eyes
inside of them she saw pain
She’d do anything to take away the hurt
the thought made her cry.

All too quickly the sky filled with grey.

elegant and bold,
she is like the rising sun
a cosmic queen’s adored creation
a plasma-laced starchild
making her appearance in my sky
she is a firefly
sparking flames into the night
fragile wings carry her through the journey
to keep my path well-lit

I could walk through the meadow
putting one foot after another,
making the ground move,
letting the sunshine kiss my skin,
trapping a sunflower in my hair.

I could settle down in a cabin
and find fallen pinecones,
and face the blazing fireside,
and live amongst the wolves.

I could love the one who loves me
and the way the clouds move,
and the rumbling thunder
and the green of your eyes.

-my wildest dream

Gentle rays
They fall down on my face
Leaves turn green
I feel your distant embrace
Time went on, but why
Do I still feel this way?

Hush girl, you can’t turn back now
So wipe your tears, don’t let them touch the ground
Mask your quiet world, that’s crashing all around
Well, you’re too young to be ashamed of yourself
You asked for help but no one wants to expose themselves

Go to bed with an ache in your chest
As he sits there, oblivious to the thoughts in your head

How long can your constant gaze last
I want you to know that it tears me apart
Those eyes, though taken, cannot help but make me assume
That they are mine as well
Your scent is forever engraved deep in my skin
If you dare to cut me open, my dear
Your very fumes will seep gently out of my body, suffocating you
The very way you did to me
I search for you in everyone I see
Unknowingly nitpicking through their veins
Rummaging, collecting the tiniest bit of you I can manage to steal

Oh blue bird, blue bird, dancing tree to tree
The summer sun is sinking low in the west
Fly me there, for the fearful dragon is chasing me
Escaping this kingdom would be for the best
Throw me my sword;  time is quickly running out.

Oh blue bird, blue bird, my knees may be scraped but my spirit is not
The fair princess is calling my name from a distant place
Wind is cutting my face, convincing me I am shot
Don’t fail me now, legs, this is more than a race
Tonight we bury this throne.

There’s a certain chill --
One that I have habituated to.
There’s loneliness
the transition is the hardest part.
It entails waterfall tears
Losing sleep, your vitality growing weaker.
Don’t bother smiling.
Don’t bother to fight against it,
for you’ll only be upbraided in the end.
The whimsical fantasies
they used to live in your head,
in accord with your happy thoughts.
But wait, they’ve turned to black
like a raincloud of an impending storm.
Your dexterous wisdom
will not aid you here.

Oh, what fun is following the moon’s lit path
Allowing your body to fall into a pure trance
Let your gentle lips touch the cleansing water
Trickling droplets extending from Atlantic to Pacific
Embrace the sensitive nature as you venture upon this mountain
Sweet candy, positively glistening
It’s all nothing but a fantasy