How lonely
Every moment
Can be

When the silence
Is stalked
By pain

Veiled behind the night
The trees are dancing
In the winter mist

Just away...
Far away from pain
In rain

I lie on the stones
Dying
The eagles circle around in the cloudless sky
With stones in their claws
Ready to drop
On my soul
Crunching my senses with the final blow
I wait for death

A traveler passes by
And I request him
To stop me
From drying up
I have lost my love
My will to fight
The overhead circling death and harsh sun

And...
“how can he stop me from drying up"
In this harsh heat of hate and lost love
Even the cold earth is no longer cold
Baked up sand, and wilted love
Form the fabric of my deathbed

The stone leaves the claw
Rushing down to the heart
I raise myself a little more
Trying to meet half way
The Hell of pain
To liberating soul
And it missed
And in the mist of drummed up sadness
And of churned up dust
A voice reverberates
“Take the drop of water to the sea
To keep it from ever drying up"

The eternal
Is in sea of love
In the arms of lover
In the heat of love
Love survives
In the hearts of soul
Who belongs to one

The stars are coming closer
Over the sea
And I find you walking down the waves
Waving to me
How the stars have fenced the sea

Come sit next to me
I remove the space between
“Come walk with me
These moments”
So that they leave foot prints in me

No man has said this before
No one has
Fluttered your heart
No one has loved so much
Yes no had asked me before
How I love

What do I do
Sleep is playing tricks with me
I am dead now
Now I am dreaming
That you love
Now you are leaving

Throw a little dirt
Cover it with your laughs
I am lying awake
In my piece of space
Six feet deep in earth

Death is acceptable
But what do I do
Its not coming
Before that
Your pain happened

Sitting by the river
Having a chat
While I draw out one of my dreams
From my thoughts
She gave me some drops of water
And I went about brushing off my dreams
Stroke by stroke
From the plains of my heart


Spread all over the sky
With many dark clouds
- Floating like doubts
My memories stretch
My imagination
To the last life line of strand
Before it breaks with a twang
She looks up
Did you say something
I said
No! I just broke another dream
Shattered another past.


And she flowed silently away
Looking back till her last bend
Around the corner
Where the tree
Leaned over to hug her
Kiss her
How I wish
I could have been that tree again
Rooted to the spot
In her embrace
While she said her goodbye
And my dreams trace
Another break from Past
How I wish I should have not been that tree
Rooted to the spot.


How I wish
Cut myself in pieces of logs
Thrown in the river
To float silently
In her self
Till she ends it
By jumpingIn the sea
And I hang around
Eternally
Searching for her
In that universal consciousness
That I am lost.

I FEEL FAR

Far away
The sea crashes
On empty beach

THE LAST SUPPER

Between bites
Her eyes find me
I reach out to remove a crumb from her lips

SHE SLEEPS

She throws her leg over
Unwrapping
My dreams

LIFE'S TOUCH

Sweet chocolate
Melts
Life seeps in birthdays

THE MIST

White shroud Covers
What leaves, leave behind
Naked

THE FALL SEASON
The tree strechted to scour the sky
Entiwined within your arms
The love snowed warmth in my heart

LIFE GONE BY
Small brush with feelings
Takes a long time to fade,
On the lips or on the memories of life

The sound of Bells
Echoes on and on
And
Spaces closes in
On me
I feel far
Far away
The sea crashes
On empty beach

The sound of a crash
Lives on and on
The door still bears
Some angry steps
Every day
A seat
Lives on emptily
Enclosed in walls
Empty like me

How to go about
Living on and on
Submerged
In a sleepless dream
How long can one
Hold on to
A touch
A Smile
And
A moment of bliss

Where is my
Time
In space
Or
Where is my
Space
In time

I am still
Waiting
On and on
On empty dreams

The point of view of the young lover in the movie "The reader" where Kate Winslet plays a **** guard to a prisoners camp... and her 20 years in prison. This verse is the young lover's thought, who finally let her go, when he meets her first at the court house and then again at her release day... and she committed suicide at the end of her prison term, when he comes to pick her up.
________

I let her go
Where I could have changed
Changed her destiny
Can I live with it


I could not
And took the role Of "The reader" again
To let her live
And Outlive my shame
Of letting her go
And she did


How I let her go
To die alone
In her pain Again
She took
The memory of her
Out stretched hand
Unheld in my hands
As the kiss of death


How small things
Change and grow
In that void of cell
To burn "a desire"
To learn and communicate
To me, through my voice
Ringing in her head

How big part
I was
Of her life
And
How I cleave it out of her heart
In the end


How she held on to
The last straw
Of my reaching out
Again
How things change
How people change
And
How cowards like me
Let her go so quietly in pain
In vain

The water fought hard with the waves
Trying to hold its own reality
On the surface
Waves won


Deep inside
Lake withdrew deeper
Left the waves to play
With the air, earth, water
and
Fire


Suddenly there was a splash
A rock solid thought
Plunged deeper
Calming senses with its force
The waves, the water, the earth
And the fire


Lake opened itself
Felt the rock sebmerged within
Unlocked the deepest desire
And merged within the consciousness
The space within the thought

Lake
Water
Earth
Air
Fire
and
its own deepest desire

You focus on intense words
And me, on the silence within
You shackle your thoughts
With your language
And I free them,
With my need for space within

But you know
I will and you may not
Walk all the way along

As you, my love, will
Fall out, out of rhythm
And a total burn out
Chained to the memories of past

Pain is
When you feel like
Stopping the sunrise

Words were timed perfectly
I was in pain
Primed to bleed

Your parting words are like meditation
I keep chanting them
To numb my pain

Sunset is clouded by pain
Hides behind
Lost happiness

The loneliness of beauty
Lies in the pain
It gives her love

Those fleeting nights
Swiftly passing days
Now stand still in my tearing pain

Our difference in feelings
So different
Pain and Happiness looks same
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@Shashi 25th Oct - 31st Oct 2010

Even before eyes could find the door
Sunrise knocked
I stumbled in my cobwebs of sleep
Walked out of the door
In the full glory of a smile

She sits across, in the restaurant
In the green corner of God's own country
Sea waves wet the beach
And the sunset
Moist her eyes
As she looked *******
A fresh face, across the tables...

As I watch in the light
From beyond Horizon
Her Old memories
A tug of war
between life's triumphs
And lost battles
How life exchanges moments
Silently between them

A young story
An old memories
The sun sets over
One shore
On the other side
Its a new sunrise.

The moments between the blink of eyes
The moments between the thoughts
And memories
The moments between
The hug and warmth of care

Are the moments
When love says I am here.

Love me when I am around
Love me when I am not
Love me when I lost my self in your love
Love, love me

When i am not in love