Burrow down and hide
It's fine, this time
This time.

Think away and escape
It's alright, you're safe
You're safe.

Forget it now and begin
It's okay, start again
Again.


This time, you're safe, again.

The clouds disenvelope the slated sky
As to heighten my fear and reverence.
We haven't quite figured this whole life out:
Too unknowing to beware imprudence.


                                                   ­                    My mind shivers, I am too scared.
                                                         ­         You rest your head, too unprepared.
                                                     ­                   She lies and sighs, not even there.

You spoke for hours,
Drawling on as I sat across from you.
I stared blankly at my shoelaces,
And I could hear the weightless words.

I rubbed my tired eyes --
The same eyes you never knew weren't blue.
In the black fog I saw your true actions,
Speaking louder than your weightless words.

You used to fit just like a glove.

That was when you held my heart
And every day was paradise in your arms,
A lullaby to my soul by night
With you standing over me.

But sometime in between a first kiss
And a last glance came a day
When you lost your grip
On what mattered most
In unknown ways -- and I grew scared.

Now your hands are empty
And my heart's turned to ice
And when I see you I can't help
Wondering what mattered most.

Back when she had pigtails and mary janes
The nice lady gave her a clean sheet of paper
and told her to write down what her mommy gave her
"She gave me my dimples and sparkly blues eyes,
She gave me my laughter and a smile so wide"

Now that she's got dyed hair and cut off blue jeans
The nice lady took out a clean sheet of paper
and that's when she wrote down what her mommy gave her
"She gave you your flushed face and unsteady hands,
She gave you your panic and anxious demands"

I've been keeping myself busy these days
Because when my mind goes quiet
All I can think of is you.

And thoughts of you
Just overwhelm me.

They cloud my vision
So that all I can do is miss you.

No matter the amount of people around to distract me
From my disorienting thoughts of you
You are the only person I want to see.

In that moment of distress
All I want is to tell you I'm sorry
And that I can fix our broken pieces.

I can do it with my bare hands.

But when I really, truly see you
All I can do is think of how
You don't feel the same.

And then my mind won't stop racing.
So I don't tell you.
I miss you.

A whisper, a whisper
Like a shadow, a vapor
Escaping, to scurry
Like a nightbound eclipser

Can't see me, can't find me
Yet I can deny thee
The goodness of Life
With merely a whisper

She has two weeks to encode
The true inscription of an
Engineer's heart. But she is
Twenty.

Much too short of time for a
Younger heart. This delicate flesh
Deserves more than she knows;
Naïve.

Fake flowers from her father. White
as linen bed sheets. Fresh –
exciting as it is melancholy: the
Wedding.

Speak now or forever hold your
Peace. How can she define love?
It is – or isn't – a mistake. It is
Choices.

You like me for the me that doesn’t make your coffee strong enough
the me that always seems to make you late
the me that almost burns a batch of cookies
the me that can't park straight to save my life
the me that absolutely hates being tickled
the me that takes some comments a little too sensitively
the me that keeps you up too late and makes you lose sleep
the me that never fully succeeds at using chopsticks
the me that takes a lifetime to decide what to eat
the me that insists you must trim your mustache
the me that needs your shoulder to cry on
the me that worries this “me” is too needy

And somehow you can put your hands right on my deepest insecurities
Exposing my vulnerabilities while covering me gently with love
Because I know I’m safe in your arms and you make me want to believe the sweet words you say.

You told me I was rude.
You implied that I was tired.
You were hiding by the wall.

You failed to see me wipe away two tears.
You failed to understand that I am trying.
And it’s clear to me now that trying isn’t working.