What words describe you?
Lost in loving translation,
All for a tattoo.

Suppressing the truth,
leaving everything to the unconscious mind,
I still lay on the bed by your side,
continued losing my dignity, hopes and dreams,
I stay beside you just to make a living.

Sacrificing my own happiness,
still managing to make a smile,
when I'm with you, I hold back my tears,
just to make you satisfied,
I fulfill your wish.

Killing myself and losing everything,
You clench my neck, I choke to death,
I grasp for air to make a living,
I **** myself to survive.

I used to sit by the window and stare for hours,
Look at the illuminated moon and how it resembled your face,
Watch the stars sparkle and try to connect the dots,
Searching for answers lost in thought.

Do you love me?

Can you feel the intensity of every breath I take?
Can you feel the pain, when my heart aches?
How do you feel, when our bodies merge?
When I submerge and we converge?

I get a rush when I hold your hand,
A powerful feeling that most wouldn’t understand,
There was a time.

What would you do to see me smile?
To see me laugh like a newborn child?
Would you feel my flesh and wipe my tears?
Would you hold me close and embrace my fears?

Trust.

I long for this love that we once had,
I wish I could still see that brightly lit path,
But we now walk this troubled trail,
As we lose ourselves in this twisted tale.

The hues of fall may lift our souls,
But the leaves still fall,
The tress will soon unclothe.

I'll trace the lines along your face
Feel the warmth of your embrace
The soft firm pressure on your hips
Gently touching finger tips
Loving arms in hugging grips
Your moist and luscious pouty lips
I tasted the depth in every kiss
Your happy smile is my bliss
Each moment is a treasure
Every touch and sense a pleasure
And when you leave I'll wait for you
To gaze once more at eyes so blue

You.
You're amazing.
You're fun.
You're gorgeous.
You're crazy.
You're perfect.

Me.
I love you.
I'm boring.
I'm alright.
I'm not that great looking.
I'm insane, not crazy.
I'm so far from perfect.

You.
You derserve so much more than me.
You deserve to be happy.
You deserve to be with someone who loves you.

Me.
I do not deserve you.
I do not deserve happiness.
I do not want to lose you.

Funny
How the lies never end.

Funny
How I'm supposed to walk away,
But I refuse to.

Funny
How I'll always be here for you.

Funny
How I ******* up out of care.

Funny
How I'm always the girl who's fallen for,
Promised forever,
And dumped for a life of empty encounters.

Funny
How, at this rate,
Your future will be that of your hero's.

Funny
How your hero is hollow and unhappy.

Funny
How I'm crucified every time I love.

Funny
How I'm you a year ago.

Funny
How you're him a year ago.
The "him" that you hated for what he did,
What you do.

Funny
How I don't believe this is you.

Funny
How I'm supposedly a ******.

Funny
How you forget the way you were with me.

Funny
How how no one stops you
Because they live it right beside you,
While the rest slowly stop caring.

Funny
How I don't stop.

Funny
How numbing emotions is a better option than living.

Funny
How my heart will always ache
For knowing that you are better.

Funny
How I'm not laughing.

Funny
How it never ends.