Like broke back mountain
I broke my back maintaining
This high in the sky image you had of me
Confidence belittled with fears of never measuring up
To your cloud soaring standards
I'm almost glad I fell
A thousand miles back down to earth
Breaking through ozone layers of *******
Finally hitting the ground reality meeting me head on
With the force of an eighteen wheeler
I'd rather look up at a lie and see it as clear as day
Than look down on the truth, thinking the journey to it is to far too travel

Open your eyes, just don´t believe everything you see
Hold your head high with pride, but know that you'll never know everything
Listen to others, don´t believe everything they say
Its okay to worry about tomorrow, as long as you live today
Speak your mind, but be careful how you choose your words
Always forgive, but never forget the way it hurt
Don't burn bridges, unless you shouldn't have been there in the first place
Dont let go of hands youll want to hold on the dark days

My darling please don't whisper
I don't want to miss a line
But this vet is hard at hearing
Been blown up to many times
Please watch what you put on for us
My flashbacks aren't a good thing
One sound just one round
The memorial of emotions they can bring
I fired for you

See I didn't leave it all with the service
I still carry weight in my shoulders
Yes I made it back, but not the same
Somethings they knew but hadnt told us
I was forced to draw scars
On the skin of men with bravery not unlike my own
taught to fight, ammo with ammo
To stand for their people, fight for their homes
I fired for you

So forgive me if I shiver when you hold me
I'm told comfort always comes before the storm
I've lost so many friends to complacency
When death came knocking at the door
Many times disguised in the body of a young man
He only just learned to tie his shoes
And now he's killing in this waste land
A bullet aimed with intentions, I fired for you

A good soldier doesn't ask questions
Without a pause He follows orders
He does not sleep on beds of pillows
He rests his head on enemy mortars
You remember a man with hazel eyes
This soldiers pupils stained in crimson
I could tell you tales of freedom given
At the price of lives lost if you would listen
I fired for you
So no I'm not the same
As when I left so many months ago
I run from times of commitment
Find familiarity on beds of broken bones
I run from the unfamiliar feeling of my own home
How could this be where I am
Your kiss so close to mine
There was a day, id contemplate
How I could ever reach it in a lifetime
I fired to get back to you

I forgot how to be a lover
while I was out there fighting
A light lit for love long ago
Blew out with battle, its not shining
But I'm trying
To taste the fruits of my sacrifice
To enjoy
Cause I still have a life
I fired so I could come back to you

But the cries of my fallen brothers
Haunt even my day dreams
I find no comfort
In the illumination day brings
Its you that saves me
That gives me an inch of hope
To stow my heart on
In a river of regrets that runs a mile long
I fired for you

You sleep and deep silence creeps over me
But i can feel shivers and shimmies from your dreams
Electrified fibers of my being flinging on fractions of moonlight off your lips
I wonder if you can feel how much I want you
Temptations matched with trepidation your touch has a reputation for creating some powerful feelings
And im just to weak to work with the urges that make me wish you didnt have to work in the morning
Baby Its to much to muster the strength to restrain myself, feathered fingers light to the touch wont hurt much
But im a little desperate
Your bed head is turning me on and if i give in it wont take long
I can already see it
Chest to chest my index fingers  on your neck
Tracing lines laced with lust from your eyes to your ears lips to locks as your eyes flutter in the midst
Counting eyelashes caressing jawlines im intrigued and allured by your lips

So far away
I don't bother reaching anymore
I'm bitter at the taste of your lips
The long absences they take from my own
I've learned to sleep in my own arms,
A pillow pressed against my back. I can almost forget your sleeping here
But I don't
I wonder why you tease me with your presence
Obviously mine does not intrigue or please you
Couldn't you just leave me to my lonesome
I know it makes you feel good that I need you, but it's starting to make me sick
and to be honest I've come to hate the way you look at me
Hate thinking about the way you dont
the living look that used to reside in your eyes for me
It just doesn't anymore
Love and longing long gone,
Hate and disgust replaced them at the door

I can almost see the flashbacks, flash bangs in your eyes
I wonder what horrible thing it was, that set your beautiful "blue" eyes ablaze
Yes, I know they're hazel
But I do love to see your nose wrinkle in frustration when I tease you
I see the squints of pain, that rock your body, when your trying to chase away the demons in your mind
What was powerful enough to shake your foundation soldier?
I don't mean to pry, it must be hard to dredge up memories you've tried to bury with lead
I just want to be there when peace decides to make its presence known in your home again
I salute the southern hospitality that didn't seem to fade away with weeks of war
And wonder what it must be like to be a person, battling with insecurities and nightmares in silence, so everyone else can sleep in peace
Your warriors Aura captured my attention at first glance, and I've been trying to figure you out since
There's something to be said about a soldier with standards,
About a man with a desire to conquer
And to many morals to take advantage
I've never met anyone like you before
Never had to say goodbye to anyone like you before
I thank you for your service, I thank you for your smile, I thank you for invading my heart, taking my judgment prisoner for a while
I thank you for giving me the peace of mind, of knowing there's a soldier out there somewhere, that carries my passion on his lips
And I want to thank you by letting you know, that when night falls, a  girl is laying on her pillow miles and miles away
In a t-shirt that touches her heart
and she is thinking about your "blue" eyes ablaze, and is hoping that the thought of her might keep them burning for just a little while longer

My judging eyes on tommorow I lose sight of today

I cant help but wonder if you're heart remembers my name

Im sorry for the words that never saw first breathe

For every emotion I let die in me insteadd

Drop a beat and ill follow

With every rhythm in my chest

I"ll put words to music, emotions to movement words never spoken transformed into a farmiliar caress

I never want you to forget this
I want to leave an imprint of your mind
Resistant to time
You can forget you have a heart but please remember that have mine