When the world is so wrong, that achieving right seems impossible
and things are so bad, you cant remember what it feels like to be safe
When your so down, you wonder if any one could ever even find you
When the sky you look up to turns out to be a hypocrite,
and the grains of sand beneath you toes, spell out constant reminders of your past.

When your heart hurts in your own home
And words lose meaning more in every line
In a time where comfort seems to be at a loss
cause patience left in a huff, and desire cant seem
to find where happiness and hope have gone

When tunnels lead to brick walls
And the air is where Shallow lies
When misery takes passion company
When your intuition is
Sick with worry for your poor courage
And truth hides in your eyes
From deception and denial
Hunting for it in your mind

Seek stability in your soul
and you will find me
Faith in hand
and inspiration in tow
Ready to shine a light on a
Love that is timeless
Rainy days, Stormy nights, paths of uncertainty, answers to the questions of life
All have the potential to be illuminated

Where hearts lie side by side
Love is always born
Jealousy comes ignorantly
and can be easily overcome
Hate comes from pride being
neglected by another hearts flattery
Nurture each other!
Give to a soul
Fruits of good intentions
And good will will come in turn
Love one another!
A heart is a heart,
And we all bleed
there is no distinction between
the taste of our tears
and your loss of love is no different than mine
One of us no different than the other.

Sunrise
bitter comfort
that births from
constant isolation,
Creeping away
Hiding from illumination,
Cold that grows confidence
in isolation,
slowly seeping out of pores,
A sick suffocating warmth
enveloping, reminding
every minute, every cell
that the fire
love brings
will never travel here
sunlight a substitute
for the passion
that burns everywhere but here
so you burn in this lie
waiting for the
truth
of a night
spent in an empty bed
and a dinner enough
for two made for one
to consume in shame
because this
sorry excuse for a life is
not pessimistic, only fair
and Sunlight in an optimists eyes
can lead to madness
ever associated
with misunderstandings
of love and life.

If day should break
And creep across your your face
Before I wake from my slumber
I pray that whatever god there is
Would be good enough
To at least light my dreams
enough to see
the sunrise that has always been you

a flower shall be named of love
And shall teach the journey to it
To be born in a dense dark grave
And though unable to witness the colors of passion
Embrace every tingling nerve infected of it
To see naught
And hear echos of a world
With a brighter future than your own
To fight with every new piece of your being
And welcome them with new confidence
Push so hard it hurts,
For nothing could hurt more
Than there being
Nothing else but this
Feel like your fight has lasted forever
And you'll fight no longer
Catch a break
And catch a breathe, one breath
Before you catch a glimpse
Yes a glimpse
shades of affection
Reflect off of
Seas colored with trepidation
And the trees shining in humility
One with a wind
I didn't meet but today
And Sun with a touch Of warmth isolation in my own soul never gave me
I grew by my own strengths
But I thrived in good company
Thy presence equates
To a better tomorrow

And the flower should teach love to unfurl
and ignite the senses I'm such an intoxicating way
That so even if love may age,
And even die
It would always be worth it

I remember

Being hungry
The people in the park that fed us for free
Our only place, our favorite place, next to you and our creek
Their dollars donated to our grumbling tummies
Yours to your next drink

I remember

Growing up wondering why love looked so painful
Why Momma cried when she kissed you
beds made under bridges
And not minding, cause we missed you

I remember

Your three best friends Jack John and jose
Momma fighting for us to see you
How she always found a way
Wondering why she was always blotched with bruises when you went away

I remember

A train ride to what turned out to be tomorrow
Learning to live a life that wasn't filled with sorrow
Looking into the eyes of a woman who hasn't seen her own dignity in so long
Realizing how much you really cost her
Hating myself for never catching on

I remember

Being 15 with daddy issues
In a lonely world a lonely girl
How could I still miss you?
Explaining to my brothers what I really takes to be a man
And stumbling cause I'd never really seen one
finally telling them if you love and always love, you'll always be one

I remember hearing your voice for the first time in years
Flash back ten years
"I'm gonna die someday" in my ears
I remember wondering what you were trying to accomplish
Daddy's little girl gets bed time stories rot with anguish

And i'm back to reality in time for " im sorry "
And my ten year old self "now you want me?"
So weighed down with questions I never got to ask, not knowing if there worth it
You never gave a ****, and here I am worried that your hurting

I guess naive is naive
And you either want to love or you dont

In case you hadn't noticed
The thought of you has infected me
And to elaborate you made your way  into the deepest parts of me
You spliced the skin I let you in,
a virus taking over me
And like tears made of real life tragedies,
you broke fourth in full force
immersed yourself in my anatomy
Walls I built to keep you out crumble in my own shame
Cause when your in you will see all the dreams that sprung from your name
Making me fight within my self for self revalations but its of no use
Cause I dont know who I am, haven't known where I stand since I met you

I am not well

these hallucinations are so real
I can almost feel your love for me
But it's the wrong time, and it's to soon, and life couldn't really let this love be
But it's so strong, and I'm too weak
And my heart seems to really want to do this.
So I sit back and back track and pray that I dont lose it
See I'm seeing things in different ways, and I'm not sure that I trust myself to know
If these are my eyes, if this this is my life, where I am where I should go
And
You shine in a shade of light I've never really seen before
Im waking up to hopeful ways, nights filled with things I couldnt dream before
And it's shown me things about love and life I would never have believed before

it can get pretty tiring

To sit in dismay day by day thinking of every way to say I want you and I love you
and have that turn to second thoughts harbored in fear of never being worthy of you

See you've tainted every aspect of my life.
You've invaded my mind,
not to mention my heart.
You ripped feelings of fulfillment from my eager hands
You showed me the path to happiness
And then kicked up the dirt so i had no chance of taking it
You took the chance, to take my faith
And then gave me falsehood instead
You played your part
And you pulled my strings
You were my master puppeteer
You shook my faith, rattled the cage
I guess in hopes some courage might fall out
We both know that you could have used it
You took my strength
and you abused me with it, you used me with it
cause you couldnt find your own
You told me not to worry, not to shed my tears
It's clear now you didn't mean for long
You let me hold you, let me love you
Let me give you my emotions
Then you rocked the boat
let me float
On a bed of lies
You ignored my cries
Belittled my fears
And then used them to break me
You molded me when you told me
I wasn't worth the effort
So I held you up
While you put me down
Equating your happiness to mine
I let you take it from me
And fake it for me
Too afraid to face the truth
Because you wanted me
To build you up
And make you better
Make you seem to be
A better man than you could ever be

Was I really that Naive?