what happened on this day was as clear as how the sun shines
we were busy with our lives, that night was our rest
it was truly a rest
that night felt right
the way we told each other indirect i love you's
you writing "i love you" on my thighs with your hand
me singing "i want you to know, i love you the most" lyric
of one of the songs that i like
that was the first time we confessed, indirectly
i feel like my heart will forever remember you
whoever i'll meet,
it hurts to say,
but nothing can compare to what my love is for you

i imagined you standing there in front of me
not wasting any second to hug me
you’re out of breath
worriedly running
it’s like you know what i’m thinking on those moments
when i don’t answer your call during those times
you get extremely worried
because you mindlessly know, during those times,
that my mind is in between wars,
it’s in between chaos and sadness,
and my heart is a wreck,
a train full of endless cries,
wherein you know i’ll give up at any second
but you’ve known i’m strong
you’ve known i’ve been through a lot
so you did just that
in my imagination, you were there
not saying anything
not wasting any second
to hug me

it’s the 3-month mark now
and guess what?
i still love you
more than i could ever love anyone else

it's the first time in months that i told someone
that i still love you
they asked if we're still talking
and it hurt me to say no

it's okay
i can always smile

maybe my way of coping
is also the way that hurts me
by putting meaning into everything
it makes all the memories difficult to forget

you don’t even have to ask
if i can keep you in my heart
you’ll always stay
here, always