(1)
last time i felt loved was,
laying in bed in a bright sunny morning,
coughs and sneezes everywhere,
couldn't stand, couldn't walk,
but there he is,
putting a towel over my forehead

(2)
last time i felt loved was,
bawling my eyes out on a video call,
tears fell as if it's natural for my eyes to just have tears,
sad tears that looked beautiful,
but there he is,
getting sad and frustrated because he wanted to hug me so bad
yet he couldn't

(3)
last time i felt loved was,
having a breakdown in a car,
anxiety and depression strike me down at once,
hands were shaking nonstop,
but there he is,
holding my hand tight, hugging me, and letting me know he's there

(4)
last time i felt loved was,
looking in front of a mirror,
eyes were bloodshot red because of nonstop crying,
waterfall tears,
but there she is,
wiping her tears, moving forward, and fighting again

well,
goodbyes are always painful
but i try my best to always
give them a good goodbye
for both of our sakes

“what’s the question that would make you tear up immediately once you hear it?”

“”how are you?””

i’m at that age
where proposals & “will you marry me?” questions
make me cry

and if i’m finally living life,
i wonder, who will i meet?

in this new life i'm creating,
i'll thank everyone for everything.
you have to lose your old life,
in order to gain a new one.