Darkness
Here I am again
Standing in front of you
Head down
Blood dripping from my wrists

Why Did I leave..

You kept me alive
Immune from pain
of love and loss
Sheltered
Protected
Safe

Was it for the right reasons?

I took a chance
Walked away from you
I thought I could
Face what was thrown at me
I saw Death
Gave Life
Felt Pain

So Why Am I Here Again?

I dont want to feel
Anything negative that I feel now
The only thing i want to feel
Is Love.

May I?

So In trust
I return to the way
I was before
Just to feel that balance
Restore what was
No longer in balance.

Thank you

My guardian
My love
My friend
Forever by my side

Darkness

He sits before me
Pen and paper in hand
His eyes shifting
From side to side

"Thank you.."
Was all he could say
"You were following me"
Voice barely above a whisper
Was my response.

"Shall we begin?"
I asked
As I reached for the lamp switch.
Before I could turn it on
The lights were on.
As I looked at the man
I realized his features were different.

His skin was fair and flawless
His eyes were piercing green
"Yes we can get started."
He picked up the pen and waited
I spoke of my life
Births
Loves
Trials
Joys
Sadness
Regrets
As he wrote it all
He smiled and nodded.

Placing the pen down
He stood quietly
Before I could move
He was behind me.
Leaning close to my ear
He said "Ask me anything"
I froze
Feeling his breath on my neck
"When were you born into darkness and Why did you choose me?"

His response
" I am 400 years old. And I want a soul like yours to be mine."

So my interview was my death
And my rebirth
Into darkness
With my Immortal Love.

Sitting here
Alone with my thoughts
My emotions
One thing
I cant seem to shake
Is the feeling
Im losing you.

You have
Watched over me
Protected me
Love me
In such a way
Many cannot understand
But something lingers
In the darkness
Waiting for the right time
To pull me back
Back into its clutches
And keep me chained
Never to see you again.

Why does this happen
Why let me taste heaven
Happiness
In my loves arms
If you just
Are going to take it away
And condemn me
To walk this world alone.

I feel them closing in
And I know what they want
Bind me to you
Forever my love
Before I lose my way forever
Condemned to walk
In this mortal world
Forever searching
And Forever Alone.

You say
You remember
My face
You say
You remember
My touch
You say
You remember
My voice

So if you remember
All of that about me
Then tell me
Do you even
Remember my name?

There comes a time
When I have to realize
How I truely feel
About things in my life.

I once thought
I was over things between us
You were happy at some point
When you didnt talk to me

Why am I not strong enough
To tell you move on
To let me go
It is like broken glass
Laying around me
Everytime I think of you
Hear your voice
Or read what you wrote
All those years ago
It is like a sharp stab
To my heart
As if the glass is entering my skin.

I feel I am not strong enough
To stay away
Everything about you soothes
This demon
That has engulfed my soul
It cowers in front of you
As you speak
Your voice like a lullaby to me
Saying I still love you.
I believe you.
But I am afraid.

Im afraid I am not Strong Enough.

Things happen for a reason
With no concern of the affect
I thought I moved on
But I see
I am just not over you.

We talked for days now
The old feeling came alive.
Everything hit hard
All at once.
I am just not over you.

I want to see where it leads
I want to see these feelings grow
But all these feelings
And desires
Proves
That I am just not over you.

She walks alone in the darkness..
Her own solitude as her guide...
Her friends are the demons ...
Deep inside her mind....
her only hope is in her heart...
A promise to keep hope alive....
That makes her do everything...
Just to survive...

And yet it isnt enough...
She is trapped...
Alone in the darkness...

He tormented her...
His laugh echoed in her ears...
As she searched for a way out...
Hope seemed lost...
Until...
He came...

Her savior...
He found her...
In the shadows...
The glimmer of hope..

Shined in his eyes..
As he took her..
And held her close...

She walked in darkness..
But no longer alone..
He protected her..
His beacon of hope..
Her hope for the future..
The Archangel and his Shadow.

Remebering your voice
And the tone
The gentleness
Protectiveness
It started up again.

Why?
I was over you
I let go of you
I moved on without you
Why is this happening.

I wont turn again
I go forward
Not backwards
So make up your mind

Just please
Understand
What is past is past
I will be sure
It will
Never happen again.

You are nothing
You are pathetic
You are worthless
You are a mistake
You are an idiot
You are a fool
To think someone would love
one such as you...

Being told these things everytime
Makes anyone feel low
And makes them feel
Like they truely
A Waste of Space.

I remember
The day
My lonely
Journey
Of pain and misery
Began

It was the day
I walked away
From one
Who meant
The world to me
He made me feel
Whole.

Thirteen years
Has passed
And I cannot fill this void
Deep in my heart
My soul yearns for yours
Even far away
From you hurts my heart
My tears try to wash
The pain from the broken heart
Only to fill the ocean
Of sadness.

I want to sink beneath
Its waves
But I feel you next to me
Unwilling to let go.
"I will not let go..."
Until the two halves
Are reunited
My world will remain
Half asleep
As I will be
Incomplete.

I look outside
At the world
My mental state
Is shaken
And spirit torn.

I worked so hard
For things throughout my life
Only to have them taken
Out from under my feet.

Why are you letting this happen?
What have I done to deserve this?
I work my hands
To the bone
My body wants to break
And turn to dust
But my will wont allow it

When will you let me eternally rest?
Do you hate me so much
That you enjoy watching me
Suffer in agony?

I find myself outside your house
I know you beckon me
To come in and return home
But I cannot
I am not at peace
Should I enter
The Darkness may rear its head
In protest

Please forgive me
As I walk away.
I do not deserve this life
This soul
But you gave it to me
I know
I am special
And these gifts
You have given me
I appreciate them
I adore them

When my time comes
I will tell you about them
How happy it made me
The strength you gave
The power it took
To get up
And
To brush the dirt off
My soul just
To finally
Come Home.

I often wonder
Who I really am
How so much has changed
Over the years
But one question
Still lingers in my heart
Why...

I have many friends
Just like me
But not quite me
Even they wonder the same
Why...

I felt I was diffrent
I felt so out of place
I felt something was missing
There is an eternal void
Why...

She gave me away
And I dont know why
So many questions
The answers I may never find
God put me here
For reasons still unrevealed
Until he shows me
I may never know.

It is hard being adopted
With questions unanswered
But something wonderful
Always makes me smile

I would never
Have
What I have now
If it wasnt for the adoption
I have a wonderful
Loving
Protective
Tight knit family
I call my own.
I have three children
Whom I love and protect with my life.
My parents
Whom
At times
Do tend to
Get on my last nerve
With the lectures
But deep down
I know they love me

They love me
The best they can
This is my legacy
This is who I am..
I am an adopted child
And im grateful
My family is apart of
My adopted legacy.

Sadness
Engulfed her soul
Her heart broke
As man
Tore at her body
Everyday.

She cried to the wind
As trees fell
With a sickening crack
It made her stomach turn
As the natural beauty
She nurtured
Was destroyed
For the sake of men.

Waters ran crimson
As pollution
Death
Ravaged her life blood
Her tears would fall as rain
To wash away earthly pain.

We never see
What we do
To mother earth
Everyday
So I will only have this to say.

Her sadness
Will be only for those to wonder
Her body is for those to plunder
But we all return to her
When we are six feet under.

My heart
Heavy
With a burden
Unlike anything
I have ever felt
I lay at your alter

You spoke
Of letting things go
Wash away like waves
Upon the shore.

Forgivness
After everything
I have seen
Done
Heard
It is hard
And it hurts
To let go.

Its shaped me.
Though I do not understand
Why
Nor will I
Until the time is right

Teach me
Your ways
Through
Your Joy
Your selfless ways
Your compassion
Your tenderness.

With you to guide me
In my ways
I will learn
And walk the path
Of the Enlightened Heart

I've never felt this way
In years.
22 years to be exact
Until that day
When he put his hands
On my throat.

My life flashed
Right before my eyes
I saw my funeral
My children crying
As they lowered me
Into the ground.

All he wanted was my car keys
But I stood my ground
I said No Twice.
I screamed out
Which caused him to run.

People ask
Are you alright
I answer honestly
No im not fine

I came close
To knocking on heavens door
That day
I escaped
But not entirely
You can call it luck
I call it a curse
Because now

I fight a diffrent battle
The curse he left behind
Utter and eternal
Fear.

Vicious
Magestic
Loyal
Pure
Predatoral instinct
Emerges from darkness

He catches the scent
Of his next prey
Is it an animal
Or is it a human.

He follows his target
Down the street
He watches her
Her body movements
The way her skin glows
In the perfect moonlight
Her hair framing her perfect face.

His stomach churned
Was it hunger
Or the urdge
The urdge for *******
He wanted her
No
He needed her
To save his soul
And heart
From darkness's curse.

She rounds the corner
And he follows close
Only to come face to face
With her
She felt him
Inside her mind
Her heart.

He claimed her then
Making her his.

The wolf
Claimed his Salvation
Forever walking beside him
The wolf and his Shadow.

So here we go again
Same old ****
Im the mega *****
Honestly
I could care less.

You did it again
Set me
The *******
But this time
Like I said
I dont give
A flying **** anymore

Cause this is the end
This was it
I work come home
To what or who
My kids
Happy to see me
Im glad they do

The other
Nowhere to be seen
No word
No text
No call
Ya know I am sick of this ****

The whole planet
Can burn before
You notice im there
Friends are more
Important to you
Meanwhile I hug
A teddy bear
At night to sleep
I may as well pour my emotion
Into it because
Otherwise it is being wasted

This depression
This battle
There is no survival
And thats fine
Because
When i go to hell and your there
Your going to be...
My *****.

Body cold
Lifeless eyes
Soul eternally cries
For an end
Release
From the eternal torment
Of the memory

Alone in darkness
Within four walls
This soul
Yearned for completion
For something like itself
To save it.

An angel appeared
Its touch tender
Honest
Loving
Broke this soul
Scaring it back into the darkness

The soul had seen beneath
A heartless being
Cold
Painful reminder
Of what it had been through

Never again
Did this soul
Want to be in anguish
So as the soul took shape
It stood
Alone in this dark place

A soul of pure light
With a heart of darkness
Never to know
Love
Only to know pain.
Im afraid
I will be her one day.
For you see
The heart of darkness
Will not go away.

Walking
Alone
With only my thoughts
I tend to look back
At my decisions
In life

Where they the right decisions?
Harmful decisions?

Someone important
Once said
Dont look back
And above all
"To Walk the path of life
One must walk their life
With no regrets."

I had to weigh everything
My family
My happiness
My self worth
My heart
My health

I made my choice
I chose them.

So I have sacrificed
For my choices
But I did it
Because of that
I have
No Regrets.

Once upon a midnight dreary
While you ponder weak and weary
Images of blood that is shed
Dance around inside my head

Chains jingle from above
As they hold you still my love
Why do you fight it dear
Is it out of fear
Struggle fight
With all your might
But I promise one will die tonight

Shudder as you feel
The sharp blade of cold steel
I get to play
Tonight is my night
Scream and cry as much as you like
No one will hear
They wont save you..
I am your fear
"Stay away from me.."
" Why... Im your perfect enemy.."

Now you ponder weak and weary
As death lingers close
The room is dank and dark
Careful what you wish for
Just like it once said...
Nevermore

So many things
I want to tell you
But they were never
Able to come out
And now they haunt me
Torment me
In the darkest recesses of my mind.

Sometimes being away
Makes me realize
Just the right amount
Of emotion I have bottled
Inside and away from you.

If you only knew.
How sometimes at night
Id pray to disappear
To die
But
I find the answer
Death would only end the suffering
And start another.
Would you care?
Would you stop me?
No, you would let me go
Down that forsakened path alone.

Torn my heart
Stained my soul
Tears of blood
Flow from unseen wounds
And pool on the floor
As I stand before you

Pure tears
Fall down my face
And mix with the blood
That seems to flow
More from my chest cavity

In my hands
I held the still beating heart
As I hold it out to you
Looking in your hands
Where the silver metal
Flashed in the moonlight.

Wake up
Its just a dream
Or is it.

Images seem to haunt
My mind

So was it really a dream
Or am I eternally alone
And haunted
By a memory.

Alone
Lost and forgotten
I carry on
Throughout my life
Wandering
Hoping to find
Meaning
Of my meaningless exsistance.

For months
I thought of things
Reasons
No more excuses really
As to why
What did I do to you
And the answer never appears
So why do I even bother

Holding onto something
That at the time
Felt so good
So right
And for what
Just to be cast
Into the darkest
Recesses of this wretched life
By those closest to me

What will it take?
What do you want?
Tell me...
Or am I just a fleeting memory

I know I mean nothing now
I knew it from the start
My mind has fallen victim
To sweet
And empty
Promises
The grounds
Have been defiled
With lies
Wrath
Envy
Lust
Disloyalty
To where it has no room
For honor

So I walk alone
In this life
With nowhere in mind
For you see
All I ever was and ever will be
Is Forsakened.

Hmm how to discribe
You
As I see you
Two faced.

You smile
And talk buddy buddy
To me
But behind me
You throw me in the dirt

It is people like you
That really get me angry
Why be one way to my face
And behind me another

Take a good look
And see the damage
Your forked toungue has done
For now
I dont want to
Even be your friend

For when I found you
Two faced
I realized
Friendship wasnt worth saving

So be two faced
And the world will see
How you really are
And who you are
Two faced.

I watch you
From a distance
Walking alone
Looking around
Remember me

You smile though
You want to cry
Why
Why do you hide
Remember me

You left me without
Saying goodbye
Yes I cried
But I also died
Remember me

Do not shed a single tear
For me please
I wasnt worth you time
You spent it with others
Remember me

I told you I still care
And that I loved you
But nothing
Helped
Remember me

So again please dont cry
Cause this isnt a lie
I did die
Cause of you
Just remember me
The way I used to be
Before you destroyed me.

Walking the narrow streets
I feel your presence
Everywhere
But I am alone
Where are you?

I rub my arms
Continuing to move forward
The current of life
Pulling me along.

I dont feel safe
You left
No word
No sound
I cried
I screamed

What would it take
For you to come back
If I could have one wish
It would be you being here again

I find myself
In front of your door
Peeking in the window
I see you
Drinking away your sorrows
Let me in
One last time
Sing the song
You sang to me
Before you left

I wanna hold you
Console you
Why wont you let me
Self pride
Ahh let it go
I loved you
Didnt you see...

Now your asleep
On the sofa
And having a nightmare
The high pitched scream
As a car slams into me

You blame yourself
Since that night
Ill sing you this one line
Throughout time
It wont rain all the time..

So ill see you on the other side
My love
And keep you warm from above..

An angels touch
Soft
Warm
Loving

An angels voice
Peaceful
Sweet
Caring

An angels embrace
Protective
Nurturing
Calming

Her heart
Never swaying
Full of love
Undying loyalty

I look up to heaven and cry
"I am down here....
Will I ever feel that again...
To be touched by my angel.?"

"Touched by an angel... Loved for all eternity.."

I had another nightmare
About my life and you
I know your ok
But this one its hard to forget

I make my way down a dark hall
My hands brush the sides so I dont fall
The walls feel wet
Is it paint or is it blood
Im afraid to find out

I make my way to a room
Lit by only candle glow
They lead me to the center
Where I see a young girl
Dressed in white

She is crying because boys hurt her
She screamed for help but noone came
I look around and see a coffin
Flag drapped over it
My heart races
Thinking it is you
Laying there.

With shakey hands I open the lid
I fall backwards and scoot back across the floor
It is my body....
But how....
Why...
Who did this...

Three hooded figures step
From deep inside the darkness
Each having a word across the chest
Past...
Present...
Future...

I pull the little girl close to me
Shielding her if they tried
The figures smile and raise a hand
Something happens
As if I was hit several times
But I didnt fall
I didnt move

As suddenly as they appeared
They disappeared
The little girl
Lay in my arms
Her blood
Bright crimson
Flowing upon the cold stone floor

She looks up and touches my face
I mentally break
I kept saying
Im sorry....
Im sorry...
She looks away from me as a white golden glow encases her
Small figure

She is taken from my arms by
A guardian angel
As he stands to leave
I simply ask
Who is she...
He stops
Turning to me
He speaks
"You know who she is...
She is you... At age 10...
The age you lost part of her...
Your innocence..."

I stare at the angel
"Then where were you...
Who are you..."

He smiled
"I was protecting you....
Though you did not see me...
You sensed me....
And you fought back...
You know who I am...
I will be watching and waiting...
And when your time is up...
I will come for you..."

I woke up in a cold sweat.
But the angels words echo
In my heart
"You know who I am...
When your time is up...
I will come for you...."

So you tell me
You moved on
Thats fine
No ill will
But you turn around
Bash me in a post you did
I wouldnt do that
My mom taught me better
However I never said
I wont get even
You said you want to be friends
But you wanna know something
You lied to me
About everything
But did I bash you online
No...
I respect you enough
To do it to your face
Then walk away
So I will get even
And when I do
You will understand the saying
Hell hath no fury
Like a woman scorned.

Throughout my life
I have felt nothing but pain
I know most of it is my fault
But realize this
It has shaped me into this
This stronger person.
Hate Me
Hurt Me
Say what you want
I will still be standing
Watching over you
Protect you with my life
Hold you up when you fall.
Until I am no longer needed.
I stay quietly next to you
Shadows and Dust I will remain.

Thoughts of suicide
Thoughts of ******
Has crossed my mind
I want to be loved for me
But also I want to be hated
By those that hurt me

Am I twisted?

This cold steel
Cuts deep across my skin
As the pain drowns the memories
Oh the thought of killing you
Is sweet

Am I twisted?

Do you know
What I dream
When I sleep
Let me tell you
I dream of death
Not mine like I should
But yours
Slow
Painful
Warm blood flowing
From wounds inflicted
As I carve your heart out

Am I twisted?

Scream at me
It drives my thirst
To cause you more pain
Your body would be lifeless
But I would have
Your blood curtling scream
Ringing in my ears

Am I twisted?

So before saying anything
During your life
Think on what I want to do
To you
Lets see if you decide
If I am really and horribly
Twisted.

Ever wonder
What happens
When
A demon loves an angel?

They long to be
Next to them
Staying safe
Calm
Wishing and hoping
Their chaotic nature
Would subside

They feel like pawns
In a big chess match
Between good and evil
They cling to each other
Hoping for an end
Where they can be happy
But the cycle horrifically
Continues

A demon wins
An angel dies
And the demon cries
For evil won this round

So where
Does this game leave us
We are seen as a prize
Some to good
Some to bad

But one thing for sure
We arnt the only ones
Who suffer this fate
This is what happens
When Demons Love Angels.

Dear Daddy,

I wanna be like you.
I wanna wear the same uniform
When I get older
I wanna work hard to make you proud
Like you have made me
Until then I will help
Mommy through the hard times
I will help watch my brothers grow
I know you have to go away for awhile
I dont want you to go daddy
But you have too
To keep mommy, me
And my brothers safe
Never give up daddy
One day
You will say
Thats my daughter
Thats my soldier.

I seem to think
Of you alot lately
This time
I want to break down
Cry
Scream
But mostly die

People tell me that you
Dont care about me
But I feel they are wrong
Others dispise you
For what you stand for
They do not see
What I see
Or know
What I know.

You have the heart
Of a fighter
Strength
That comes from within
Will power of titanium
Spoken harsh words
When necessary.

And yet thats only brushing
The surface
People have chipped away
At you with
Words
Actions
All of which I am guilty of
I am sorry for hurting you

I know it was from a lie
And I was wrong.
But did I lie
When I said
I love you?
No I dont think
I did

Truth is I still
Love you
And so
I hold onto
These precious
Memories
In the hope
That there is a chance
Before darkness consumes
My heart
And death takes my soul
From my body

All I have left
Are Memories

Dark
Mysterious
Eyes that could lure
The most vunerable women
He just raised a finger
His will was done.

Who could match his will
New within the walls
Lurked someone
Who had a will of steel
Much like the weapons
She practiced with

She never spoke
Her eyes would speak for her
The warriors she encountered
Would lay their weapons down
At this ones feet.

He had heard
Of this silent warrior
So summoning her
He waited

To his suprise
She appeared
Standing in the rafters
Watching him
Instead of jumping down
Her image disappeared
And reappeared in front of him.

As he spoke
Her eyed flickered
She was a demon
When he was finished
A smiles crossed her face.
Her voice was barely above a whisper

"Dark Prince..
You summoned me...
Yet...
You cannot fathom....
The power I can unleash...
But I will stay...
But mark my words...
Tonight...
Darkness will forever...
Be your throne..."

She stayed with him
Staying in his shadow
Her demonic eyes
Flicker
Waiting for her time to play
From her Dark Prince.

He sat in the barracks
Comtemplating over
His life
Relationships
Watching many of his friends die
Some in his arms
Others before his eyes
What hurt him the most
He had no one to call his own
Back home
He shed his tears for his comrades
Behind closed doors
He never wished to be seen crying
For in his mind he thought emotions
Were his weakness

As he sat on his bed
His thoughts drifted to his relationships
Many women had come in and out
Of his life
Hurt and destroyed him
Both mentally and emotionally
Until he met a woman
That even though she was married
And had her own problems
They became very close friends

He tried having several other girlfriends
But they threatened to hurt themselves
If they didnt hear from him
While he was overseas
He found it rather annoying
So the only one he talked to
Was his best friend
They would laugh and flirt around
In a sense it helped him
Get his mind off the battlefield

Other women came into his life
And did the same as the others
As time wore on his best friend
Stood beside him
Silently watching
Little did he know she was more valuable
To him
He realized she had done something
The others could not do
Through everything
She had taken his heart without him
Even knowing

Over time he cherished her more
He longed to hold her close
To keep her safe
But he didnt want to make her choose
He knew someone would end up hurt
He just didnt want it to be her

So he decided to wait
And to this day he waits
For the love that seemed so far away
For inside he was
A Lost Soldier
With a heart
Full of Hidden Wounds.

Red crimson flows
Through my veins
Soft like your fingers
As they glide over my skin
Molding me against you
Taking full control
As you become more
Urgent
I look into your eyes
Is that lust I see there?
As you continue
Your nails drive deep into my skin
As you bite down into my neck.
I feel the blood rush forward
As you hold me close
Both bodies shuddering
As I go almost lifeless
You give me your blood to save me
Why?
Is it lust you feel twords me
As I change I become angry
All I wanted was blood
Mainly yours
You grab me as I scream
At you
"Why did you turn me...
Was it my blood you wanted...
My body... Was it lust..."
He held me close
Whispered in my ear
"No my dear it isnt lust at all...
It is out of love that I turned you..
I laid claim to your heart, body, and soul...
You are my lifemate
For eternity..."

She stood beside the armor clad angel
Clad in her own armor
She listened quietly
As he went over the battle plans
She had her fears
She had seen the enemy forces
And reported back
She also spoke of how she felt
That the battle ahead was pointless
But they had their orders
As they mobilized
And prepared for war
She turned to her leader
Her love
And he looked to her
"We may not be together after
All this...
But I want to tell you I Love You."
She held her head high and nodded.
He knew she loved him
Unbridled
With a fury that would shake any mortal to his knees.

As they fought alongside their fellow comrades
She tried to stay close to him
However with the waves of demons
They become seperated
When its said and done
She makes her way
Back to his side
But sees him
Get run through by a demon sword
Instantly she shattered
Her anger went into overdrive.
Catching his body he went limp in her arms
Her eyes close as an evil force
Begins to emerge
Her skin goes red
And nails sharp
Her white wings turn black
His body falls to her feet
The anger in her eyes
Made the ground rumble
And the sky darken
She let out an inhuman scream
Within her hands
She destroyed the rest of them
Angels and Demons alike
She did not care
She had lost control
As she stood alone on a ****** battlefield
Someone spoke her name
Turning around
She sees him
In his angelic glory
He moves quick
And kisses her
Her rage died in that kiss
"You are my queen"

Standing together
One an angel
The other a demon
Both in love


" An angels fury makes her a demon, but his kiss made her his  queen"

Rain falling down
On the ground
Forming tiny rivers
and puddles
Watching children play
But why am I the only one
Getting wet
Then I realize
I am the one crying.
What is causing me to cry
Everything
Anger
Love
Hate
Pain
How I wish I would not feel this way
I wish to be an empty shell
But without the rain
I realize I wont be human.
So I let the rain fall
And remain silent in my sorrows.

Have you ever
Said hi to the one
Who supposedly
Said I am in love with you
To your face.
Now they wont give you
The time of day

Why couldnt you
Just say
I want to remain friends
Instead I waited
No word
You kept on in your life
But left me behind
I thought you loved me
I thought you cared
But it turns out
I got the cold shoulder
You turned your back
And walked away

What did I do?
Answer me that
Did I hurt you...
Cause if I did
I am truely sorry
I hope you can forgive me
One day

All I have to go by
Is your silence.
So until you
Can turn and face me
You will never know
What it is like to be
Truely Alone.

They watch
In silence
As their loved ones
Prepare to leave
For many months
They wont be able to touch them
Kiss them
Spend every waking moment with them
But they hold their heads high
For they knew
Once their loved ones joined
This would happen.

As they watched them fall into formation
They stand proud
Though they know many
Wont come home
They stand ready
For the day they feel the warmth
Of their arms around them

These do cry
But you do not see
They hide the tears very well
Behind a mask of strength
If you think the military is tough
You should see the men and women
That stand behind them
As they form the silent ranks
Of the US Military.

Why do you weep
Oh soft and fragile heart
You hide behind sheets of glass and ice
You do not wish to be broken again
Your time spent among other hearts
Has caused you great pain

I know how you feel
Oh gentle heart
I know the pain you harbour
I feel the pain
As you flutter in my hands
Beat stronger for me
Please tender heart
The world is cold
Dark
Full of those that want to break you
Pure heart
I will keep you safe if you let me.
Please
Can you hear me
I know you can understand
For you, my heart, are beating in me
Here inside my chest.

Never heard
Always misunderstood
Alone
Misguided

Dont wake me up

Why would anyone
Care
Cold inside and out
Shadows of former self
Dance upon the wall.
People tear at the shell
Trying to find a way
Inside
To plant their
Unholy seed
Erasing meaningful memories

Dont wake me up

The frail shell
Is on its last leg
As she crumbles
To the ground
They stare at it
Lifeless

Dont wake me up

They walk past her
In a single file
Some crying
Others cursing
Never listened to the victim
Even twords the end
A voice carried on the wind
Accompanied by a cold
Fragile laugh

"Just remember what I said
Dont wake me up when I am dead."

Shadows
In which I reside
Feel the raw power
Deep inside my veins

Dark energy
Flows in mass
Amounts
Leaving you cold and afraid

Think you are safe
In the dark
Dont make me laugh
I am the one everyone
Talks about
Jokes about
But when
I come for them
They try to get away
Failing miserably
For the shadows
Are my Dark Territory

He wears army acus
**** good with his weapon
But he is also just a man
He never judged me by what was said
He always wanted to help me out
If I had a bad day
He would make my anger go away
If I was happy
He made sure I stayed that way
When I told him how I felt
He confessed he felt the same
Because of this
Our feelings grew
Into something new
When we met in person
I saw him for who he was
Just a man..
He has dreams
He has fears
He will talk with you if you lend an ear
He spoke of what he saw
Overseas
Losing friends left and right
Him wanting to give up the fight
He then turned to me
And said
"You saved me"
I wondered how even after he left
Then the answer came
"You gave me hope...
Your laugh gave me life
But most of all..
Your kiss gave me your heart"

So my best friend and guard
We will protect each other when times are hard.

I promise
I wont let you fall
I promise
I will hold you close
When others turn away
I promise
If you push against me
I will hold my ground
I promise
I will be your armour
Shielding you from harm
And when you feel yourself fade away
I promise
I wont let you become a memory.

I heard stories
About forbidden love
Forgotten as the years
Flew by

But something
Still lingers
In my long forgotten memories
A touch
A kiss
Words hardly spoken
But often understood
And misunderstood
By most.

I feel the softness
Of your caress
Upon my skin
As the heat builds up inside
Your gentle and feather like kisses
Sends my heart to beat rapidly.

I look into your eyes
And loose myself completely
As you move away
The fear takes hold of me

You wrap me
In your arms
Keeping me safe and warm
I close my eyes
And listen to your heartbeat
Strong
Reassuring.

Show me what it is like
To feel what you feel...
Show me..
Your Angelic Passion.

Beautiful artist
Why do you dance
To entertain us
With a world shrouded
In mystery

Beautiful artist
Men awe at your beauty
As you dance across the stage
Movement flowing
Like water

Clad in layers of silk
Beautiful artist
You capture the facination
Of those who visit

Beautiful artist
Paint your face
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder

Wife to a secretive world
Both fragile as it is beautiful
So wear the name proudly
Beautiful artist
From now on you will be called
Geisha.

I remember his smile
His embrace
His touch on my fingers
As he played beside me
We made such beautiful music
Why did you have to go?
I loved watching you
Prepare for concerts
The calone you always wore
Always making sure
The tuxedos were fitted right
You would play the melodies
Of your life for all that would hear
Just as suddenly it was over
The music lost its magic
I played one last time
As I closed my eyes
I began to cry
I felt you next to me again
As I finished the song and quietly stood for the final bow
I saw you
In white
In front of you crystal piano
Smiling at me as you played
The same melody
Now it lives on on me.

Weep not, oh fallen one
The angels are weeping for you
Beautiful and graceful
You walk among us
Living your life as we do
Strong willed
Loving
Sharing words of wisdom
Helping those in need
Never asking for anything in return
Still they continue to weep
And when you drew your last breath
The angels wept then
For an angel had returned home.

We all have
Someone we
Love,
Cherish
Protect
Would do whatever
It took
Your breath
Blood
Tears
Strength
Your very life

You never doubt them
I have been there
A few times before
And each time
I ended up crying
Until I became aware
Of one
Fragile yet determined
Heart showed me the way
From Darkness to Light

I cant turn back
Not now
So with these words
I call you
By name
In my own way
Lover
Husband
Best friend
Protector
Lifemate

These are the words
I call you
And with this
I close my eyes
And die
In order to be
Reborn
In Your Love.