I've never felt this way
In years.
22 years to be exact
Until that day
When he put his hands
On my throat.

My life flashed
Right before my eyes
I saw my funeral
My children crying
As they lowered me
Into the ground.

All he wanted was my car keys
But I stood my ground
I said No Twice.
I screamed out
Which caused him to run.

People ask
Are you alright
I answer honestly
No im not fine

I came close
To knocking on heavens door
That day
I escaped
But not entirely
You can call it luck
I call it a curse
Because now

I fight a diffrent battle
The curse he left behind
Utter and eternal
Fear.

Vicious
Magestic
Loyal
Pure
Predatoral instinct
Emerges from darkness

He catches the scent
Of his next prey
Is it an animal
Or is it a human.

He follows his target
Down the street
He watches her
Her body movements
The way her skin glows
In the perfect moonlight
Her hair framing her perfect face.

His stomach churned
Was it hunger
Or the urdge
The urdge for *******
He wanted her
No
He needed her
To save his soul
And heart
From darkness's curse.

She rounds the corner
And he follows close
Only to come face to face
With her
She felt him
Inside her mind
Her heart.

He claimed her then
Making her his.

The wolf
Claimed his Salvation
Forever walking beside him
The wolf and his Shadow.

So here we go again
Same old ****
Im the mega *****
Honestly
I could care less.

You did it again
Set me
The *******
But this time
Like I said
I dont give
A flying **** anymore

Cause this is the end
This was it
I work come home
To what or who
My kids
Happy to see me
Im glad they do

The other
Nowhere to be seen
No word
No text
No call
Ya know I am sick of this ****

The whole planet
Can burn before
You notice im there
Friends are more
Important to you
Meanwhile I hug
A teddy bear
At night to sleep
I may as well pour my emotion
Into it because
Otherwise it is being wasted

This depression
This battle
There is no survival
And thats fine
Because
When i go to hell and your there
Your going to be...
My *****.

Body cold
Lifeless eyes
Soul eternally cries
For an end
Release
From the eternal torment
Of the memory

Alone in darkness
Within four walls
This soul
Yearned for completion
For something like itself
To save it.

An angel appeared
Its touch tender
Honest
Loving
Broke this soul
Scaring it back into the darkness

The soul had seen beneath
A heartless being
Cold
Painful reminder
Of what it had been through

Never again
Did this soul
Want to be in anguish
So as the soul took shape
It stood
Alone in this dark place

A soul of pure light
With a heart of darkness
Never to know
Love
Only to know pain.
Im afraid
I will be her one day.
For you see
The heart of darkness
Will not go away.

Walking
Alone
With only my thoughts
I tend to look back
At my decisions
In life

Where they the right decisions?
Harmful decisions?

Someone important
Once said
Dont look back
And above all
"To Walk the path of life
One must walk their life
With no regrets."

I had to weigh everything
My family
My happiness
My self worth
My heart
My health

I made my choice
I chose them.

So I have sacrificed
For my choices
But I did it
Because of that
I have
No Regrets.

Once upon a midnight dreary
While you ponder weak and weary
Images of blood that is shed
Dance around inside my head

Chains jingle from above
As they hold you still my love
Why do you fight it dear
Is it out of fear
Struggle fight
With all your might
But I promise one will die tonight

Shudder as you feel
The sharp blade of cold steel
I get to play
Tonight is my night
Scream and cry as much as you like
No one will hear
They wont save you..
I am your fear
"Stay away from me.."
" Why... Im your perfect enemy.."

Now you ponder weak and weary
As death lingers close
The room is dank and dark
Careful what you wish for
Just like it once said...
Nevermore

So many things
I want to tell you
But they were never
Able to come out
And now they haunt me
Torment me
In the darkest recesses of my mind.

Sometimes being away
Makes me realize
Just the right amount
Of emotion I have bottled
Inside and away from you.

If you only knew.
How sometimes at night
Id pray to disappear
To die
But
I find the answer
Death would only end the suffering
And start another.
Would you care?
Would you stop me?
No, you would let me go
Down that forsakened path alone.

Torn my heart
Stained my soul
Tears of blood
Flow from unseen wounds
And pool on the floor
As I stand before you

Pure tears
Fall down my face
And mix with the blood
That seems to flow
More from my chest cavity

In my hands
I held the still beating heart
As I hold it out to you
Looking in your hands
Where the silver metal
Flashed in the moonlight.

Wake up
Its just a dream
Or is it.

Images seem to haunt
My mind

So was it really a dream
Or am I eternally alone
And haunted
By a memory.