I want to drown
Drown in the sound of your voice
Voice I hear resounding in my head
Head that is filled with a million thoughts
Thoughts that stem from unanswered questions
Questions that fear responses
Responses that that will never fulfill me
Me who sits constantly talking to myself
Myself who is my greatest enemy
Enemy of my heart
Heart which is pulled deeper
Deeper into pain
Pain which is caused by refusing to let go
Go where I know I shouldn’t
Shouldn’t lead myself on
On to what ifs
What ifs that I know are impossible
Impossible yet seem so real in my dreams
Dreams that refuse to let me see reality
Reality that I don’t want to believe
Believe that the past is behind us
Us which will never be
Be what I imagine it in my head
Head that holds the secrets of my heart
Heart which won’t go of you
You which let go of me
Me who can only rely on I