Crispy air brushes through
                                       the spaces between my fingers.

Howling of the wind rushes through my body,
                                                                   sending shivers up my spine.

The intensity of the ominous clouds arise,
                                                             now filling in what was once serenity in the sky.

I don't recognize myself anymore,
I hide behind a porcelain mask.
Gluing a smile to my face.
Every second of everyday.

If you look deep enough you can see the pain and suffering in my eyes.
To only look for the same old lies.

Hunger pains hurt,
But starving works.

I'm trying to be the thinnest of them all.
Living off barely any calories,
My body's wasting away.

Feeling empty and incomplete,
I don't know how I manage to stay on my feet.

I'm scared to take a bite of food,
Not knowing what it might do.
It'll help my body, but I can't take the risk.
This is horrifying I'd rather feel bliss.

Bones are beautiful,
Rather so sweet.
They are so lovely,
Through their iridescent peaks.

I admire collarbones,
Wrists so small.
Wrapping my hand around them,
The beauty of it all.

Hipbones sticking out,
Pure and sharp,
I love the way it feels,
Beauty of the art.

My love for you is unbearable,
       The way you make me feel is inevitable.
Soft, tenderness in your voice.
        A gentle, embracing smile of joy.
             The little words of serenity you speak.
                       How you say 'I love you' making me weak.
I need your love and I need your time,
You feed my heart, soul, and mind.
         Our souls are intertwined,
      And Our hearts dance together.
              Please don't leave.
               Not now, not ever.

Weakness grows and lies within me,
Needing to be skinny,
Needing to be mini.

Constantly controlled by my dear friend Ana.
She tells me I'm fat,
That my weight is too high.
She says that she'll **** me,
That soon I will die.

I step on the scale,
Dreading what I see.
Too big of numbers,
My worst enemy.

Love is fire burning bright,
Fulfilling with passion and lust,
Yet dangerous.
Love leaves your soul flaming,
Left to bleed.

Fire is the burning tenderness,
The power of love can smolder the flame or ignite it.
It ceases to live for the moment in hope and fear.
Fire consumes,
Fiery can leave blazing scars.

You think of this person
on every occasion and in
everything you do.

You open your heart knowing
that there’s a chance it may
be broken one day and in
opening your heart,
you experience a love and
joy that you never dreamed
possible.

You find that being vulnerable is
the only way to allow your heart to
feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you.

You find strength in knowing you
have a true friend who will remain
loyal to the end.

Life seems completely different,
exciting and worthwhile.
Your only hope and security
is in knowing that they are a
part of your life.