I jumped off the pier
Splinters grazing my feet
As my toes lost their grip
On the ancient wood
I intended not to float
But to sink
Deep down
Into the nightblack sea
And I did

But as I sank
With thoughts swimming
As my body refused to
I suddenly knew
That everything
All of it
Would be alright
For at the end of the last tunnel
And at the tip of a burnt match
It all gets finalized
With time's official stamp of approval
To move on
To go forth

But still, I didn't want to swim
I ached for where gravity would lay me
So, sinking farther and farther
I grew more and more content
With the way things were
With the way things are
With the place where were at
At this very moment
And then I turned
Flipped my body so I would be facing
My ultimate destination
The floor of the deep
At first there was nothing
Blackness and unknown
Clouding my vision
Unceasing and all knowing
All at once
For a long
Long
Time

But then
Out of the black
And the blue
There was white
A white light
Small as a pinpoint at first
But then it grew
And it kept at it
Inflating from that pinpoint
To a golf ball
And then a baseball
And then a basketball
And on and on
And on
Until the light
Became what the dark once was
Flooding my eyes
Skewing my vision
So bright and luminous
But I didn't close my eyes
Or even lift a finger to shield them
Instead I stretched my body out
And opened it wide
Embracing this beautiful revelation
Eyes wide open
Body splayed out
Heart beating calmly
Blood flowing gently
Soul sitting happily
And

Just like that



I was awake