RedHanded (First Time I Saw You)

There you were
Sparky hair and red shirt
-as I could still remember
You smiled while noticing me
I was caught red handed
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#SheIsSoLucky

I saw you a couple times
Waiting for someone
I had seen that someone
Should I noticed that too?
That someone
-is so lucky
-to have you
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#HowCouldIForget?

It was a seldom audacity
For me to look at you
But that day
Our eyes focused
At each other-
Made me realised
that
you
are
so
powerful.
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#Resea­ch (1)

My FYP moment
But you got me first
I needed to get rid of you

But Els,
You had planted seeds in my garden heart
That had been cloudy and raining for years
Now the seeds had grown into flowers
And would not wither unless you pick them.
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#Research (2) (I Found You)

I was dying to know
So i found everything
Every single pieces of what i needed
Whom was written above?
It was YOU.

God led me to you
With His mercy
I found you.
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adulthood is fighting for innocence
looking for it
rediscovering it
desperately holding on
longing for what was
before it was done
each day slowly forgetting
each day a step away
some lose it faster than others
some never look back
and the girl says all this
confidently facing the camera
pleading with the world
that she found a truth
worth sharing with you
but the truth is nothing
if you cannot reach it
or keep it
so now we both stare awkwardly
at the screen
not knowing what to do next
she presses the button
to stop recording
uploading
and I flush the toilet
wipe, wash my hands
and think about my adult life
and the innocence of taking
two hours
having a date
with nature's knife

Intrigued, you'd press generate
And all the verbal diarrhea would come pouring down the screen
Just like in the streets
yet more formally structured
But just as brown
Intrigued, you'd try to see if anything could be salvaged
After all, the point was not to avoid writing
But to get ideas from the machine
Alas, it was all a waste of time
An awfully sorry excuse of writing
And I may be a bad writer
but at least I have good taste
And have built said taste
brick
by
brick
Just like my fyp on tiktok
except
less chinese
but just as
addictive