I thought the dude was joking,
I mean he was all tore up,
crying like a newborn baby,
as if the apocalypse
had arrived early.
He bawled so much,
it took me nearly ten minutes
to get any answers out of him.
Evidently,
somebody on his Facebook page
had 'defriended' him.
Good ******* grief,
this guy's thirty-eight years old.
Like, really.

Sun kissed limbs
Walking too far, lost downtown
But don't mind, nope don't mind
Felt a joy I hadn't felt in a few days time
Thinkin' about all my warriors spread out among states
How they lift themselves up everyday
Our lives so different, we can't fully understand
But we listen and hum
Our love so immense so monumental.

I'm sorry that its been hard
Stressful
My friend Alex made a joke about drugs being the cause
Of it all in the water
That mighty scary stuff
With snake like claws its taken hold of so many
In just this year alone.

Not a single reply from you
I guess it does disappoint my heart a bit.

We will never be friends.

But I'm finding peace with it
Goose bumps on my arms, drank up every drop
Of this chai latte
I know I need several upgrades
My environment growing and changing
I miss my parents.

The feminine voices all around me sing so true
I turned my phone off yesterday because I needed time to disappear

I wish you had answered.
Theres truly nothing
I can do.

I defriended her at last today
Because I realized it wasn't fruitful to my existence
To see the past howl and move forward with happiness
Remaining in my old apartment
None of it matters or changes me
Any longer
And neither do you.

But I'm sorry.
I'll probably feel that deep in my bones
For quite some time now
Swiping and moving away from criticism
Picture locked.
Picture locked.
I locked my picture.

Trusting it all
That I make
Sense.

Lets go out tonight
I'll wear my thrift store **** **** shoes
Feeling hot, on the prowl
Soaking it all up
Summer in Chicago
I've never been so ******* free.

Remember how
I know you have chosen to not
You were once going to be the color red
I told you just like Lady MacBeth
A woman keeps spitting near me as I wait for the bus
The only white person in sight
And I'm never afraid
Because what's to be afraid
Like so many would be
In the age of
In this age of
It's a study, a moment to soak up
All there is

A mural of Logan Square
I remembered today
How I fired you
With white blonde hair
And I caught you talking ****
Immediately after
You told me I looked good
And had nothing to say.

I saw the other day
You could not remain
So you defriended my name
I warned you
And this is just the beginning.

My hands are cold as I type this
I saw your cowardice
In the flickers of my iris
Crying on the phone with the new man

But he didn't give up today.
And I hope we never do.