Let's just say mom
had two sides.
She was a true dichotomy,
a great example
of the perfect
yin yang mother.

On one side,
she did the best
she could,
clothed us
& fed us,
cleaned up our cuts,
did a bit of homework
& taught us about Jesus.

On the other side,
she did her worse.
She lied,
connived,
****** a couple
of my high school friends
& showed us the devil.

When there's sun
  it shines
    so warm
but when it rains
  it pours
    always a storm
When you're here
  I'm alive
    I breathe and feel
when you're gone
  I am broken
    I never heal
How it hurts
  I'm so helpless
    aching from my bones
how long it is
  the day's
    never ending and alone
If I try
  it takes more
    all of me
if I walk away
  I leave empty
    never to be set free