I've kept my feelings bottled up inside,
For so long I can't remember.

All my emotions and secrets and lies
Hidden right behind my eyes.

And of course I'll continue to do so
Until one day...I will explode.

And when I do you'll know everything.
You'll be standing there in front of me.

You'll laugh and gasp,
You might even cry.

And then you'll ask why.
Why have you kept this bottled up inside?

And then I'll say that I had to protect you.
I had to protect you from the feelings that you would have after learning what I've kept.

Because I don't want you to have to keep them bottled up inside.

baby bottled blonde
Do you think of me at night?
As you drift into slumber
Soft — alight —

Baby bottled blonde
Your radiance transcends
O’er three thousand miles
I’d sweep you in my arms
To your soul I would tend

Baby bottled blonde
How I’d caress your appled cheeks
Kiss you in the moonlight
My tender heart — it leaks

Baby bottled blonde
It is you and you alone
My desires, selfish —
How do I atone?

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I hate to be selfish
But I feel you should be mine
All this dodgy playtalk
When together, we could be divine?

You see the slump in my shoulders
the way I carry myself
the burdens of boulders
that threaten my health.

When you ask what's wrong
I pull up my guard
don't want your pity or sad song
won't tell you why life's hard.

So if you want to know
I'll bottle it inside
wrap up all remains in a black bow
and tell you I'm fine.