rarely do you get a chance to remember such a trivial
affair, as a football match,
call it telepathy or whatever,
but when poland was playing against israel,
in warsaw, and the israeli anthem came on first,
and there was the initial booing...
which subsequently hushed down?
sure as **** casimir III wasn't available...
my only critique of the english?
they don't really understand jews...
from under the iron curtain:
to under the silicon curtain...
the left of the west is not the left associated
with the eastern block:
it's unrecognißable...
far from it... it's unworkable...
where is the grey suited soviet
special committee including the KGB?
nowhere!
but the boos faded away rather quickly...
i liked that...
after all, most of the israelis
these days look like the sort of
mediterranean folk you find in greece,
lebanon, sicily, libya...
they don't look your stereotypical
hebrew orthodox jews of eastern europe...
they have finally become reunited with
their natural tan...
2000 years will do that
to you, integrating, diluting the blood,
up north... yo! hibbie, you're as pale as a ghost!
better get a tan on that tapestry of skin!
- but the english don't really understand jews...
it's not like they were hiding in Poland
all this time, but they were,
they tried the Netherlands, Spinoza:
disgraced... they tried England: i'm pretty sure
they were ejected: once upon a time...
but let's not read into a historical rubric
of events... yes, the norsemen discovered
h'america long before christoph coal'umb'bus
did...
what's there to wrestle with?
well... my jewish neighbour came into my house
today, neurotic (like any heb- / ***)
about her cat: bella...
a white spider-cat:
how this cat managed to end up on the roof
with the chimneys, i will never know,
white like snow, heterochromic...
genetics has sentenced her to a "premature"
death, along with the pedigrees...
because she is white-fur...
anyway...
she asked me: are you still into
the jewish ****? i shaved my head not not
so long ago, she comes in and says:
you're like my son joseph,
you're alike, both of you don't trust barbers...
you look like someone out of auschwitz:
although better fed...
it's nice to share a joke with a heb- / ***...
she told me to not read the talmud...
i said: but i'm not a "convert"...
i would never read a script of the religously abiding...
i might be a lunatic to some extent,
but not the sort of lunatic to the extent
of gesticulating to blanks...
so i said: yes, the qabbalah,
the mysticism of judaism is hasn't waned...
i still read it...
and i do...
the one book i have on qabbalah was
lived past its u.b.d. (use by date)...
it just keeps giving...
it's the only source of knowledge
i've truly taken seriously... and i will slander,
**** ***** **** all i want...
but... i have one rule...
i will not utter the tetragrammaton...
i figured... well: there's sauron...
there's voldemort...
do not invoke the name
of the lord in vain...
well... there's your answer...
i could never buy into the christian
poetic variant of cannibalism,
isn't it cannibalism?
at a catholic high school,
when everyone was being reared into
the catholic bureucracy of the rite of confirmation,
i refused when i started reading the gnostic:
to hell with a church wedding...
mind you, the hebrews already have a trinity
in place, unlike the christian pagan profanity
of a body hanging on the cross,
very much akin to the norse god Loki
sitting in a tree...
'thou shall not bow before any graven image'
well...
the hebrews have two very specific nouns
for the all encompassing noun:
which i will not say, ever:
ha-shem (the name)
tetragrammaton
(the four lettered word)
interject the latin grapheme Æ,
the union of Adam and Eve if you mind
to know the way of wisdom,
wisdom? yah... in the sefirot alt. named
chokhmah...
mind you, i only spotted this today,
you know how hebrews treat their vowels
akin to niqab beings...
they "hide" them?
oh they hide them, very much akin
to diacritical markers,
but unlike a ż-aba (frog, in slavic -
der überpunkt)
or tematyką (thematic of) -
slightly different...
slightly different hiding
vowel or consonant distinctions,
from... hiding the vowels in totem...
imagine my "bewilderment" when
the greco-prefix rule was applied,
hovering over the hebrew letters א (αλεθ /
αλεφ... ****... no F / ᚠ
in either language... just the grapheme
ᚦ.... but unlike a classical grapheme...
not a siamese akin to æ...
very much akin to modern western
slavic... in ******: sz [š], cz [č], rz [ż])...
and ע (ayin) and no iota in hebrew
either... with צ (tsade) resembling
ψ (psi)...
about the etomology of slav,
as someone pointed out:
that slavs denotes the etymological root:
slave, that slavs were slaves in medieval europe...
oh, you mean the balkan slavs?
the ones who experienced ancient rome?
rome never made it to Poland,
to Pomeranian Germany... vikings founded
Kiev...
the ****-****** vikings of
such beauty as would require another
nose stereotype drifting away from the jewish /
roman nose... but hey... that's life...
see, i like these hebrai complications...
every time i pick up a book on qabbalah
i'm in kamikaze mode... i can spew all day...
i'm most interested in their treatment
of the vowels...
did you know that the hebrai
have sometimes two nouns associated
with a vowel?
look at me, latin inherent,
syllable mendeleev castrato...
i don't have a name for any letter in latin!
ah... A... b': B... c': C... d': D...
p'p'p'p: ***... that's really taking a ****...
once advantage?
a good chance of a global
success of a fireside kumbaya...
big deal... half-baked sing-alongs
is one thing: a world of ideas, another...
if i operate within a framework,
where no letter, has a name...
akin to the greek: A is for alpha...
B is for beta etc.,
then what the **** are we talking about?
at least this:
i've just learned that my female cat
is sensitive to the sight of human genitals...
she's sitting on a windowsill one minute,
jumps off it the next...
when she sees my genitals urinating
into the toilet... hell...
now i have to cover my phallus
******* into the wishing well
with one holding the aim "button" and
the other blocking her view of it... ugh...
watching the t.v. of making polish dumplings,
garnished with olive oil having fried
unsmoked bacon and onion to a crisp?
well... unless it's a show about my year of
birth, 1986, chernobyl, probably the latter...
life's too easy these days...
it makes no sense with women:
lounging...
back in the days with
no washing mashines, refrigerators,
irons, food processors,
ready-made-meals,
etc. etc., vegetating,
when women were as important
at home, as men were important in the world...
lounging, vegetating, lounging,
vegetating,
there's hardly a solance in a comfort,
when it has become nothing more than
a complacency... an irritation...
oh but i will still listen to crusader
hymns, french, german and esp.
in latin...
even while i celebrate hebrai mysticism...
i'm not exactly going to conscript myself
to a dervish spin-in-the-middle
and pretend no one notices me ****-load
of attention...
i'd conquer the ottoman capital
on a whim of taking a **** in the middle
of ot!
the slavs that were considered slaves
in the medieval period? i'm guessing
these germanic hard-ons are referring
to the balkan slavs..
beside the point...
did i mention that the hebrai
(i'm not owen benjamin -
what a nice jewish surname,
small hats? what about the christian
monk tonsure pseudo-imitation?)
second name for their pentagram?
A - kametz
E - tzeré I - chirek
O - cholem U - shurek
Al-ef (a)
b-Et (e)
gI-mel (i)
yO-d (o)
n-Un (u)
the hebrai do not follow the prefix rules
of the greeks...
did the hebrai conspire with the greeks
to overthrow the romans?
yep...
i'm not discussing this, i never will...
it's like gravity to me...
the greeks would never forgive the romans
invading them...
like at edinburgh university,
i met one greek...
Istambul was still Constantinople
to him... enough said...
but there are other names to the vowels
already stated... when the tetragrammaton
interacts / enters the sefirot...
the "other" ten commandments...
when the tetragrammaton
assocites itself with the crown (keter)...
A remains kametz...
but... when the tetragrammaton
associates itself with chokhmah (wisdom) /
yah... what was once kametz,
becomes: patach...
when the tetragrammaton
associates itself with understanding (binah)...
E remains tzeré...
but... when the tetragrammaton
associates itself with love (chesed) / el...
what was once tzeré,
becomes: segol...
when the tetragrammaton
associates itself with foundation (yesod)...
U remains shurek...
but... when the tetragrammaton
associates itself with splendour (hod) /
elohim tzevaot...
what was once shurek,
becomes: kibbutz...
what are the remaining vowels?
chirek (i) within netzach (vistory),
cholem (o) within tiferet (beauty)...
the tetragrammaton itself...
or... look to the heavnely orbs...
and yet they keep on spinning and orbiting
their settled commands...
but...
but...
a sixth vowel can be excavated from
the hebrai...
from the sefirot branch: gevurah,
strength, the vowel that resembles
what the two consonant-vowels (א aleph
and ע yin) already looked like to me...
the consonant-vowel י (yod), ',
otherwise known as sheva.
so there is a 6th vowel in hebrai...
as there are two vowels posing as consonants!
again, at this point, me converting to
islam is... ha ha!
never mind, every time i talked to a muslim,
in public, as stranger to stranger...
the feeling of: conversation...
soon turned to a feeling of conversion...
so...
i came to the hebrews of my own
accord...
am i a monotheist?
i shouldn't think so, since i'm not circumcised...
i like the idea of *******,
allows me to ******* once a day
without feeling guilty of needing
to light up scented candles in a comfortable chair...
of sure, when circumcised: it's probably
disgusting even imagining a man *******...
but... m'ah ******* still attached?
what's wrong with a ******* a web-cam
making a buck and me joining in?
that's the only decent ******* these days
to begin with...
that's like: counter the ******...
either that, or fine art.
oh i still "think" the other gods exist,
but i'm pretty ******* sure they're not as
invested in linguistics at the hebrai god...
i still call the tetragrammaton
the vowel-catcher...
and if this hebrai god is, "jealous"...
it's trolling...
since all the other gods relieve themselves
with such primitive demands
as to make people carve graven images
of themselves...
the hebrai god simply said:
write me something tangible,
and interesting!
even the monotheistic god allah
has a ******* for mantras and repetition...
worhsipping him must eventually feel
like sitting in a high school detention after hours.
sorry...
i'm siding with the hebs- / yids...
well it's not like the ******* saudis are
about to side with the palestinians...
are they?!
___
and how many shadows, do you think
you'll be able to conjure,
in the night-time
while passing the outer-urban
environment of lighting?
i passed from conjuring just the one,
then two: one in front,
one to my side...
then came three...
one in front,
one to the side,
and one behind me...
but the crescendo of the congregation
came when i turned into an alley...
six shadows...
note...
are hallucinations not of the same
substance, as shadows?
well...
given that...
i've never taken psychadelic drugs...
but fooled by
the english strand of marijuana:
skunk...
the chemically infused ****...
i have a vague recollection
of a guy who smoked this stuff...
story goes...
he chopped off his
testicles, then killed his mother...
the father filed a petition
to parliament, more like:
speaking braille to a deaf
person...
could have done
more with morse code...
but i even doubt that...
conundrum,
one candle in tow,
but there were 6 shadows
in an outer-urban environment...
which one will i be talking to then?
could there possibly be more?
7 is a nice number...
and also a nice letter: Γ
α a
μ m
μ m
α a
and the epitome of having
arrived at...
beyond prayer,
beyond soliloquy,
beyond talking to one's shadow...
a moment, beyond a soothing
epiphany,
and esp. beyond an eureka...
more... akin to...
an informal existential epitome...
or an 草
/ sō
beside the religiosity
of ******* up,
and the atheistic outright
slandering...
forget doing the 5th tier of bowing
like a muslim in prayer...
because of "what i want"...
or whatever crap that involves...
it still bewilders me...
why would you need something
akin to the great wall of china,
when the phonetic encoding
is already a bastille?
well... if "god" is associated
with delusion...
what's the difference
between a delusion and a belief?
delusions don't possess convictions
of that translate themselves
into a fathomable will...
delusions are...
a plethora of doubt(s)...
imagine that...
grew up in an english society
with so many, many secular sensibilities...
and yet... all these problems...
i'm going to the next sand-pit
with my bucket and *****...
after all...
Kant wasn't an atheist...
all the classical (anything outside
of the 20th is classical)
philosopher had a grain
of sensibility concerning this:
faux pas topic.