I spit catastrophes rapidly
Leave you a fatality
Innocent by reason of insanity
Her voice will always stick with me

Now my sanity deteriorates like Chernobyl
It's almost like I'm immune to the sadness of funerals
Our generation seems to have no need for morals
My generation known for disrespecting girls

Am I explicitly gifted or inconsistently wicked
Feels like my souls been torn out and twisted
It's got me adapting dynamically, changing my mentality
Truly what is the real reality

Living life with a new found belligerence
Like a high off of ten different barbiturates
This cypher shall be thy deliverance
From a generation polluted with ignorance

I'm a sadistic mystic
Artistic, and pessimistic
True art is about pushing limits
You want the full view, only giving you snippets

I'm a rhythmic mercenary
Hitting you with a vicious, malicious vocabulary
I've been living my life, pseudo-legendary
Her eyes were always bright, luminary

Life is just death's reprieve
One life is all we receive
Her death is something I will never believe
Her spirit connects with me effortlessly

I see her everywhere I go
Her death brought me to new lows
She was the polar opposite of my foe
She had me the minute she said hello

Being alone lets me unwind
Nobody knows how or why I'm ill in the mind
They don't like it when I go silent like a mime
Life often ends at inopportune times

The say nothing is hurt; nothing is lost
I would've died instead of her, at any cost
She was the only one who I could easily accost
She hit a button on my cold heart, must of been the defrost

Wake up putting my feet on the floor
Another day God keeps me away from Heaven’s door
Darkness, something I suggest everyone explores
Nothing will be the same as it was before

I get claustrophobic like a fetus in a jar
My future probably has to do with a bar
That fateful morning I should’ve been in the car
She might be gone but she’s still my life’s star

In the wastelands of unity we gamble
Their deaths truly left me in shambles
Her smile always shined bright like a candle
When I was with her I remained tranquil

In the mesa of volition the demons scheme
The only time I can see her now is when I dream
And it isn’t as perfect as it seems
My friendship with her gave me a new esteem

In the waters of destiny the creatures brood
Death is something no one can elude
Without her my vision is skewed
For her I always had gratitude

I found a true accomplice when her path crossed mine
She always kept me high, like we lived on cloud nine
She always killed my pain, anodyne
Since she's been gone, I'm waiting for the sunshine

Another day, another coffin rots away
Losing five friends left me in disarray
Trying to live life day to day
Until the day God takes me away

I guess I'm just too ******* real
For a world that is too ******* fake
Maybe that's why the Devil and I made a deal
And now my soul is at stake

Now duality's a reality
But how is that when reality is a fallacy
I hear you whispering, saying you hate me
But I could give a **** less personally

Now I'm seeing worlds of demons and villains as I take my last breath
I avidly add adages to the words that I press
Each and everyday strewn and littered with stress
Her death still feels like a **** elephant caving in my chest