Wake up putting my feet on the floor
Another day God keeps me away from Heaven’s door
Darkness, something I suggest everyone explores
Nothing will be the same as it was before

I get claustrophobic like a fetus in a jar
My future probably has to do with a bar
That fateful morning I should’ve been in the car
She might be gone but she’s still my life’s star

In the wastelands of unity we gamble
Their deaths truly left me in shambles
Her smile always shined bright like a candle
When I was with her I remained tranquil

In the mesa of volition the demons scheme
The only time I can see her now is when I dream
And it isn’t as perfect as it seems
My friendship with her gave me a new esteem

In the waters of destiny the creatures brood
Death is something no one can elude
Without her my vision is skewed
For her I always had gratitude

I'm a rhythmic mercenary
Hitting you with a vicious, malicious vocabulary
I've been living my life, pseudo-legendary
Her eyes were always bright, luminary

Life is just death's reprieve
One life is all we receive
Her death is something I will never believe
Her spirit connects with me effortlessly

I see her everywhere I go
Her death brought me to new lows
She was the polar opposite of my foe
She had me the minute she said hello

Being alone lets me unwind
Nobody knows how or why I'm ill in the mind
They don't like it when I go silent like a mime
Life often ends at inopportune times

The say nothing is hurt; nothing is lost
I would've died instead of her, at any cost
She was the only one who I could easily accost
She hit a button on my cold heart, must of been the defrost

I spit catastrophes rapidly
Leave you a fatality
Innocent by reason of insanity
Her voice will always stick with me

Now my sanity deteriorates like Chernobyl
It's almost like I'm immune to the sadness of funerals
Our generation seems to have no need for morals
My generation known for disrespecting girls

Am I explicitly gifted or inconsistently wicked
Feels like my souls been torn out and twisted
It's got me adapting dynamically, changing my mentality
Truly what is the real reality

Living life with a new found belligerence
Like a high off of ten different barbiturates
This cypher shall be thy deliverance
From a generation polluted with ignorance

I'm a sadistic mystic
Artistic, and pessimistic
True art is about pushing limits
You want the full view, only giving you snippets

I found a true accomplice when her path crossed mine
She always kept me high, like we lived on cloud nine
She always killed my pain, anodyne
Since she's been gone, I'm waiting for the sunshine

Another day, another coffin rots away
Losing five friends left me in disarray
Trying to live life day to day
Until the day God takes me away

I guess I'm just too ******* real
For a world that is too ******* fake
Maybe that's why the Devil and I made a deal
And now my soul is at stake

Now duality's a reality
But how is that when reality is a fallacy
I hear you whispering, saying you hate me
But I could give a **** less personally

Now I'm seeing worlds of demons and villains as I take my last breath
I avidly add adages to the words that I press
Each and everyday strewn and littered with stress
Her death still feels like a **** elephant caving in my chest

I spit catastrophes rapidly
Leave you a fatality
Innocent by reason of insanity
Clearing my head on this balcony
Disgusted by society
Where you gain respect by committing acts, of notoriety
My mind does nothing but fight me
Everyoneelse thinks I’m off the deep end, crazy

**** around and you’ll become the topic of discussion
Love and corruption, sin and seduction
Society is the definition of corruption
All people do is make assumptions
Born into a corrupt world, ****** up ****
Always keep the purple lit
Got Alice, Cheshire Cat, and The Caterpillar toking it
If you talk **** you’re bound to get hit

In life will all have a different philosophy
Every other man claiming a prophecy
All politicians speak is *******, dishonesty
No one cares that our children are corrupted by technology
Here’s to another day
Another coffin rots away
Life’s just a game we play
Until God takes us away

A new beginning has been presented
Just looking at me, can you tell I’m demented
Her death I could’ve prevented
Now my legacy is cemented
Life is something we can never rehearse
I’ve seen too many loved ones dead in a hearse
My heart golden, but my blood’s black
She always stole my breath like an asthma attack

So is this where I belong
Cause at this point everything’s going wrong
One day I’ll be bigger than King Kong
Free my mind, get ***** eyed like Cheech & Chong
Tomorrow is not a guarantee
When my mind is my purgatory
No one can control me
Your words do nothing for me

Now you’re saying I’m your salvation
Who the hell are you? What’s your relation
I miss seeing her eyes ablaze with elation
Her death was my inevitable damnation
Since her death I’ve been nothing but diffident
Like a lost dog, I’m timid
I’ve always been seen as different
But to that opinion, I’m indifferent

Living life with a newfound belligerence
Like a high off of ten different barbiturates
Today’s generation is filled with nothing but ignorance
This cypher shall be thy deliverance
Life is all about mind over matter
Look at the wall covered with your brain splatter
All because these rhymes blew your mind
I’m a rapper of a different kind

I see worlds of demons and villians as I take my last breath
I avidly add adages to the words that I press
Each and everyday strewn and littered with stress
Life’s just a savage game of chess
A new beginning has been presented
With her gone it’s like I’m living out a life sentence
Never again will a person so perfect be invented
She truly had an awe inspiring presence
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Living life with a newfound belligerence
Like a high off of ten different barbiturates
Today’s generation is filled with complete ignorance
This cypher shall be thy deliverance
Since her death I’ve been nothing but diffident
Like a lost dog, I’m timid
People have always seen me as quite different
But to that opinion, I’m indifferent
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Life is all about mind over matter
Look at the wall covered with your brain splatter
On some Ice-T ****, rhymes that blow your mind
True love is hard to find
Do you live life as you want to
Or do you follow everything society tells you
In the end society will destroy you
No matter what, stay true
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Just rolled up, five & dime
Every morning, rise and grind
Now I’m flying away with Peter Pan
Gone, gone, gone away, Never Land
So here’s to another day
Another coffin rots away
Life’s just a game we play
Until God takes us away
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Tomorrow is not a guarantee
When my mind is my purgatory
No soul can control me
Your word’s do nothing for me
Now you’re saying I’m your salvation
Who the hell are you? What’s your relation
I miss seeing her eyes ablaze with elation
Her death was my inevitable damnation
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No matter where I am, I’m writing a verse
I’ve seen too many loved ones dead in a hearse
My heart golden, but my blood’s black
My thoughts stretch to oblivion, like you leg on the torture rack
Is this where I belong?
This is only the beginning, not a swansong
I’m bound to be bigger than King Kong
Free my mind, get ***** eyed like Cheech & Chong
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Is this where I belong?
You're up your girlfriend's *** worse than her thong
There's more to life. It ain't no sing-along-song
Free your mind, get ***** eyed like Cheech & Chong
You think what I say is wrong?
Ha no, you're wrong, one day I'll be bigger than King Kong
I'm just getting started, **** a swansong
You can't **** with me mentally, I'm too headstrong

You're acting like I'm your salvation
But I truly hate you, even if there is a blood relation
I'm one of a kind, no duplication
I'm not scared of damnation
I've already proven my heart and dedication
We live in one hell of a free nation
You're choking on society's ****, eyes blazing elation
You're a copped out, drop out, at least I'm finishing my education...