melt me down
condense me to my base elements
make me what i am inside

melt me down
burn that layer of filth outside
and let my core breathe

melt me down
see me, me, me
see my insides and yearn for them

melt me down,
against my will.
against my better judgement.

if you want to see, see.

There was a place I knelt
In the light of chicken feathers,
And heard the song of God
Pouring from rain frogs in day lilies.

There was a bark bench in a wood
Underneath an apple-cedar rusted tree
That yielded its slimy children to me
Whenever I needed entertaining.

There was a rabbit that did not run
Immediately, but stilled and watched,
Nose twitching in apprehension, as if
Maybe I was no interloper, no enemy.

These things were -
And some still are -
Though I no longer remember
The path to the fallen pine
Or the hiding place of the rabbit’s burrow,
And the tree has been burned up
For many years.

There are pangs of hunger in me,
Not to hear God in the day lilies
(For I am still shaking from the sound),
But to find in myself the
Absolute wonder that I found
Inside a circle of roses.

sorry to the love I loved
but you just had to leave me
in why felt like hell

I miss you so
I want you back in my arms
once again

I wouldn't see the feeling
I couldn't lay down on the road
I shouldn't care what you do
but I do

I know the truth, and it shocks me,
How much she's played him,
How vast her confusing web was spun.

I know the truth, and it mocks me,
How he has fallen back to her,
How he has no idea what to do.

I know the truth, and it hurts me,
How now she realizes his feelings,
How she might not be the One.

I know the truth, and it scares me,
How she is tempting him with care,
How she tricks him with sweet words.

I know the truth, and it will **** him,
How she is catching him like the fly,
How he doesn't know how to escape.

I know the truth, and it will hurt him,
How he honestly doesn't know who,
How he loves but can't decide which.

I know the truth, and it scares me,
How can I tell his heart after her?
How can I be sure I understand him?

I know the truth behind this girl,
How she plays him like he his violin,
How easily I can read her, but not him.

Why do I feel this way for You
These feelings have No Legs to Stand on
I can’t help but be confused
You are all over my thoughts
I can’t lose you even in my sleep

I believe more than ever that chemicals are making an example of me

Control
I  Lost the definition of this word among the Distractions and Pressure
That you Put On Me
That felt like Affection at the time

These are not Tears of Longing
They are Tears of Frustration

If I could Extract you from my mind with my bare hands I would

I want to Wake with out you on my Mind
I want to Think with out you in my Thoughts
I want to Dream with out you in my Subconscious

For Now all I can do is Wait
For the Day when Your Name will remind me of Someone Else

There is another woman living
In the friction
Between your hips and my thighs

Do you think I haven’t seen
The memory of her
Swimming in the moisture of your eyes?

Do you think I haven’t noticed
The sadness
In the lines around your smile?

Do you think I haven’t realised
You’re somewhere else all the while?

Do you think I haven’t measured
The distance between
What you say and what you mean?

You’re not the first to show up here
With a broken dream
Slung over your shoulder
Heavy with things you never told her

How you’re wishing you could hold her
As we’re lying on my bed
I can hear her broken promises
Resounding in your head

I’m tired of being a consolation prize
I’m tired of soothing away silent cries
I’m tired of picking up the pieces
And wasting all my kisses
Wondering why no one misses
….me.

Should I just accept the fact
That she’ll probably want you back
Once she remembers all the things
That are making me fall in love with you?

my heart stopped beating
as the news filed through the phone
told not to worry
i can't breathe can't think
food tastes like ash
cigarettes taste like relief
information is slow to come
and tears quickly flow
nothing is making sense
crying is simply too easy
why now and here
she wouldn't let me be there
the wait is worse
can't pray to a god
no hope is breaching
only left to wonder