emotions are yet to be seen,
only the close ones could feel,
so do the real ones.
you are the definition
of mystery could never
bring misery.
I longed for your presence
as much as you longed for
peace.

A.X

a poke could ****
-A.X

only a few could
understand the disturbed.

-A.X

I'll no longer talk about,
the stars, the moon, the sun
You know very well
that you are as beautiful as
any heavenly bodies.

I stopped making promises,
knowing I could not keep them
but please tell me more about you.
How your day went
is my concern.
You are my current priority

Initials, flowers and any color.
you are a bunch of extravagant
heart beats yet
simple love will do.
Through diamonds,
I see your face shines.

through you, I saw a mirror
a reflection of me.
You made me do things,
no one else can.
Through you,
I became functionable.

I just wanna know how you did that.

-A.X

good thing that all of you are strangers to me,
no one I know would laugh at in this struggle,
no one I know would gossip about my misery.

they didn't care for me but they are watching my every move,
so they can laugh and gossip.
the people I know.

-A.X

Everytime I struggle,
there's no one;
nobody to calm
my worries.
no body to hug me.

Everytime I drop hints,
they can't seem to decipher;
they forgot how
and what to ask.
not a single one.

Everytime I binge,
stuff my mouth with food;
the shame would crawl
too fast until I finished.
I hope you're at peace.

Everytime I recall
all the horrible things;
every single one of them
forgets that I am dying.
that I can die tonight.

Everytime I overcome,
they would show up
when the struggles over.
who wants to be part of it?
none.

-A.X

I can't cry for help
because I was also the reason
why someone had to sleep
with tears in their eyes.

I wouldn't cry for help
because I know
no one would listen
even if I do so.

I shall not cry for help
because they would blame
theirselves, if they didn't
answer to it.

-A.X