Tell me something true
maybe something about you
Come closer
let me feel your warmth
against my skin

Tell me a lie
while you smile
and erase it from your lips
with a kiss

Tell me something you've never told anyone before
come on, show me more
look me in the eyes
as you penetrate
my thoughts
my body
my soul
allow me
to watch you
watch me

Tell me something new
what have you been up to
tell me while you hold me
to keep sleep at bay

Tell me something *****
make me laugh
and leave a bruise on my skin
with your teeth

Tell me something you've wanted to tell me
the first time we met
but didn't

Tell me goodbye
and mean it

Or tell me nothing at all

A thousand glittering stars
spun road webs of white yellow and red
cannot console me
from this nagging feeling
that I've left something behind.
sprawling vastness that it is
like some dark, shiny creature
And I try
vainly
to find the light
that hits your face
I wonder where you are
right now
Are you looking up
while I'm looking down
are you engaged in this
futile search
to a add a moment
of solace
for those long nights
waiting for us?
30,000 thousand feet in the air
toes dangling
but my heart is heavy as lead

Enough
for now

this too shall pass
as all things do
with time.
Wings touch earth
I am back
but not
for very long.

I awaken
to the sound of blood
in my hips
moons come and go
predictably
but not today.
thoughts drift to the bottom
of an empty coffee cup
and I try to make sense
does it make me feel sad
to lose something
I never asked for
never thought about
never wanted
relief
stays with me for a minute
but not for long.

A strange regret to have.

I touch the last place you have been
Here
some spark lived here
a few days ago
but now- lost
as I am
how can I grow to love something
that did not exist
I've said I wouldn't want it
again and again
Didn't know I wouldn't mean it
at the end
I thought I could do anything
try every flavor ice cream there is
drink until I pass out
and burn everything
to keep myself warm every night
and not care
because I don't want it
until now
until you
will we see each other again?
I would have liked to meet you
see how you danced
but too late
this is the worst secret to keep
because a secret is always in the telling
but I'll say goodbye
with a few tears
a few wisps of cigarette smoke
I promise I won't tell Daddy about you
one last song
and a few notes of silence
to keep you safe
Goodbye, finally, breathe
it was nice not knowing you
And I'll just go back
to where I was
just a little more empty
than usual

If I could take my last five minutes of breath
I'd share them with you
Wrapped up in roots trees
of your island
As rain falls and crashes into the shivering  morning blue
we are hidden undercover
tangled in our own undoing
the fullness, the delicious sin of your fullness
in my hips
makes me cry out
and grab onto everything
to make you stay
here in this moment
I am like a young restless animal
eyes wild and naked
in your arms
We come together
like little disasters
earthquakes and hurricanes
violent and tumultuous
the unrelenting madness
in this dimly lit room
we make love
like some force of nature.
I am awake I am spinning
out of my hurricane mind
that can only be sated
with me screaming your name
like merciless pounding rain
on pavement
and skin
Make it last for as long
as I have the taste of you in my mouth
the slow, deep magnetic pull
of your body to mine
tracing small circles on your skin
branding soft kisses
in the secret places of you
until there you are
buried deep within me
and I am helpless
I feel the earth vibrate into my bones
in every pore
each dying for release
each one stronger than the last
inch of you
wanting and wanting
to be yours
to be mine
and in a few brief moments
transcendence
and crash breathless
into each other
only thing left is a faint sillage
and our racing heartbeats
like horses pounding hoof to earth
It feels like some ancient dance
or a dream
of a thousand suns
or the stillness of stars
in their endless celestial trance.
Nothing is as transporting
than the scent of your skin
the erratic beats
underneath my ear
I have no sense of time and place
anymore
I want more
than just words

There is a screaming that is inside me
that wakes me in the mornings
Awake, but frozen
in this island of moth eaten silk and gold.
I do not know who she is
and what she wants from me
but she lies over me
pinning my arms and feet
with silver pins and golden needles
it does not hurt, it does not bleed
But it does leave small
pinprick scars
that glint in the moonlight
my body awash with stardust
shake it off of me with every ******
I want everything to penetrate me-
birds, words, stars and men.
Yes, young prince, gaze upon me
release your ancient loneliness in me
I won't remember a thing
but having the sweetest dream


A spell to break
As heartbeats met-
please, please, whatever you do
Do not kiss me just yet.

Another night of sleeplessness
in this cold shivering city
no gentle breeze with consoling arms
whistling green and free
to comfort me
on endless nights like this.
I walk
along blinking stardust streets
feeling the softness of moonlight

And a voice-
somewhere far away
beckons me, calling out my name
every sound like roughened velvet
on bare skin-
You say my name like some delicious sin.
Electric thrill runs down my spine
I swear I feel your breath beside-



Gone
Nothing but the feel of your eyes on me
As I drink in the night
with closed eyes.
The familiar hunger stirs.
Deep and achingly sweet, that is my curse.
I long for you to make me yours.
I yearn to be something more.
Take me away into the night
and enfold me
embrace me
slowly sink in
faceless, senseless.
let me melt into you
for I am yours
as you are mine-
always
in this lifetime
or the next.

Yawns chase each other
dancing slow dreamy steps
My mind wandered off
an hour ago
chasing after distraction
with a flash of whirling colors
like an iridescent hurricane.

My voice remembers some notes
of last night's laughter
My tongue blearily waking up,
savoring the feel of wine and smoke
Hair wondrously disheveled
Eyes with a tint of night's mantle
Lips languorous
throbs and silences
the steady pulsating beat of red

beckons me
to feel
morning gold on my skin.

I stick my tongue out
eager to take the sun in my mouth
intermingling with the smells of night on my clothes

Contentment is in the details.