I don't have
anything to
say to you that
I should
probably say

so we go on,
not speaking
for loss of
words and
lack of
guts

but what I do not say
that I should not
say
is that
you are everything I've
ever needed and
you don't even
know it.

And I know you
have no confidence-
Darling,
and I know you
think it's pity,
when I'm so nurturing
with you-
which is why
I'll never tell
you that
for the first time
I'm in love- truly
in love- the
agony,
pain,
desperation of
love-

it's with you!
and
you'll never
know because
I love you
too much
for you
to know

and it's just something
I cannot say.

When I read
your
tarot
and I placed the cards in a
Celtic Cross

I pulled the Hanging
Man,
The Emperor...
The Hermit and then,
Death.

I see what you're doing.

I see where you hide.

I see that you're burdened by
the past that spun around you, out of your control- a child
who
was shown a world that
often touches in a way
that is not kind-

that is this world
and
I'm a part of it
too.

Hold any card
you want,
my love,

touch any card of
mine.

Hold me
to your chest
and feel the love
that life can
give
a
soul
like yours
who holds the
marks of
many ghosts
existing in
the past

I'll hold out my empty hands
for you

to fall into
when you
can
finally
open
your eyes.

so
sweetly,
sadly,
hopefully
sings
an
inevitable
ending

and so
surely
she
replies
with the
promise of a
new beginning

I think I
might love
you
&
I think I
could try
to
wait for you
to love
me too

It's only the ending
and you're only my
beginning