The trees sing softly, my favorite song.
The murmurs of the willow oak
And of my heart beating.
The voices of my sisters
Tell me never stop running
Because as long as I run
Man only sees my shadow.

Revive this cold and riddled heart
She’s muted in a daze
Flame just one unembered spark
With a flash to set me ablaze.

When I lost my northern star
You found and brought me home
After many years of wandering
I know I’m not alone.

I know that just like a storm
You will rage and rage and pass
But even in these quiet moments
We know this will not last.

I’m thankful for your company
Because when we’re forced to part
Something stronger can bloom from the ashes
Of my cold and riddled heart.

It’s hard for me to open up
My heart usually reserved
Because bolted down by lock and key
Is how I stay preserved

For every part I’ve given away
There’s less of me to share
The curse to want to give myself
Is past what I can bear

I gave away my oxygen
Now it’s hard for me to breathe
What point is there in loving you
When tomorrow you could leave

Maybe someday you’ll look inside
And know every part of me
But until proven otherwise
I guard my lock and key

I never meant to let you in
Opening my door to someone just as confused as me.
I never meant to enjoy the words dripping from your mouth
Like honey, drenching my wings.

I fell for your soul that night
And your heart reverberating through my walls.
You pulled me closer, and I could feel it beating
Ready to march into battle.

Morning came, and so you stayed
You wanted to climb mountains.
So I dreamt of adventures with you
And believed the clear lakes in your eyes.

Sometimes I wonder what you’re doing
And if you’ve forgotten my name.
Words mean nothing
When they drip from empty hives.

I know that I won't forget
How perfectly you fit around me.
But even a perfectly tailored coat
Is sometimes torn in the seams.

I could see the light through my eyelids
Before I recognized your breath,
Orienting myself to your world around me.

The way you held me last night
Gentle but also on fire,
Burned into arm and lip.

Your closed eyes ignore the light
The same one that pierces through me,
Comfortable in this new place.

Everything is brighter in the day.
The familiarity is gone
Shedding through you as I open the door.

When there are no words left,
Read the story around me.
Because I can feel where you’ve been
And the moments you hide in each word.

But you don’t like being seen.
Like a spectre you wish to haunt my walls
And leave without the faintest sign,
Reappearing when you want to be held.

But how can I be okay with ghosts?
I can never reach out and feel if you’re real
Because when I think I feel you,
You’re gone before I can even grasp the air.

With him lying close beside me/
He took up the whole bed/
But now without him here/
He's still taking up my head.