Our first kiss was while we were young, wild and free.
Driving around in your car, singing along to your favorite songs.

Nights like this I think back to the sweet perfection of new love.
Watching the rain roll down the window like so many tears.

Things have changed so much but we stayed the same.
We could have been so much more.

You know you and I , we could have ruled the world.
We put everything to fire and keep it burning up.

Late night drinking in my mommas driveway.
Talking about the truth and how it's everything and everything is now.

I know you're sorry we couldn't be more then star-crossed lovers.
We stole our time together and we used it well.

Vivid playback of the best firsts I ever had.
Everything so natural even though my body shook like leaf in the wind.

So scared , we knew it wasn't meant to last.

Lightning strikes in the distance, crackling like a laughing old witch.
Off you drove into night, hoping things could go down without a stitch .

You always told me to go but you knew well you wanted me to stay.
You're upset and I don't know what next to say.

Old flames tend to burn things to the ground.

I am not sorry for my choices they served me well.
And one day I know you will say the same.

Nostalgia it's worn off and I am but an old lady telling a tale.
Rocking in my chair smiling at the memories and what you meant to me.

Ever stable, solid and true.
We weren't always this way.

Nothing in this world is perfect except my quite time with you.
You hold me in your arms and it's always a perfect fit.

I love the way you smell and how you softly kiss the top of my head

And when your gone away, I can't sleep for a couple days.
Missing you is not easy.

I need your smile filled with the warmth of knowledge of my quirks.

You say we are just comfortable with each other.
This is true but how could it be a bad thing?

A few times long ago you cut me off.
I thought I would die, the world was so dark without you.

The last time I found another to comfort my broken soul.

It didn't work for long, it was doomed.

Somehow you took me back and held me tightly this time.

I was lost for awhile and you didn't know how to find me.
But you noticed and that seemed to be enough.

You talked to me so calmly so sure I was leaving you for another.

How could I do that to you?

My 1st love should be my last love and that's the way I have always seen it.

It's not his fault, he lost me long ago.
But **** it if he doesn't try.

He looks all the time for the perfect things to say.
He opens his heart like a book.

It's not right he finally can trust.
All I have left is lust.

I want to be there with him, his lovely eyes.

He has the warmest smile.
Gives the best hugs.

Standing face to face with a million miles between us.

Kissing the top of my head

He says I stopped fighting for us.
I was always the one who could see.

What am I supposed to do now?

I want to want this again.

As I turn to walk away something tugs me back.
Tells me to stay, it's always this way.

I can't give up.
So I give in to this.
To us.

Can't believe I have been so lost.

Look into his crystal blue eyes and I am found.
He holds me so perfectly still.

Such a sunny funny face.

It really lights up this cold dark place.

"Oh my darling I love your funny face"  He says

Before she got here there were no colors and it rained every day.

He lays his head in her lap so he can see every inch and never miss a single word.
Catch every smile and every tear.
He doesn't know why but he never lived before he saw her eyes.

She is sleeping on the couch and the sunlight warms her face and lights her hair.

She always smiles in her sleep.

He wonders what she is dreaming.

Should he take her upstairs to her warm bed?

Instead he leans over and kisses her forehead while covering her with a blanket.
" I love you sunny funny girl, sweet dreams"

I miss your smile.

I hate the things we said we were going to do that never got done.

I hate the way everyone knows a different side of you but I only know everything else.

I wish you were here and laughing at me being so crazy.

I miss the man you became.

Why did you have to go?

Why didn't it hurt me like it hurt everyone else?

Are you an angel watching from above?

Do you sit poised ready to hunt and taunt playing jokes and shooting things past me ?

Sometimes I swear your standing right next to me arms crossed unmistakable grin plastered on your smug face once more.

See, I do miss you every single day.

Bet you thought that's something I would never say.

Cat and mouse you say.

That is how we play.

Night after night.

I fear nothing but I fear breaking you.
I am breaking through.

You say I am really a piece of work.

You only want to want me like no one before.

But I won't let you have this hazy dream.

Your anger surprises me as if I didn't already know.
We are never going to be more then you let us be.

I grow tired of the games.

I just want safety in which to let my heart go.

Your sickened by the thought of how much with love my heart grows for him.
He always wins because he knows how to be here.

It's not my fault this scared you and you can't help but run away.

I will never be any other way.

Yes the thoughts of us  are sweeter then anything I have ever known.
But they have become hazy like a dream.

You can't put me on the shelf to play with when you get home like your favorite toy.

I care too much and I dream out loud.

The softer side of you has me twisted around your little finger.

But it's not enough, we both know it's never enough.

Your not real to me anymore.

And this toy heart of yours fades to black when your so far away.
The shop is closed and there is nothing left to say.

Tired of myself , tired of being of the two sides of me.

One side loves the one stable and true,The other loves the danger and strength and full acceptance of another.

Impossible to choose,  don't want to hurt anyone.

The impulsive side thinks the danger is close, If we could be anything but bored right now.

Don't want to lose everything we worked so hard for.  
Thinks she really earned his love in spite of himself .

Sometimes she just wants it to be OK no matter what we say or do.
To never hurt a tender heart with unprepared words or her true self coming through.

Never thought she would be loved this much by one let alone two. Did nothing to deserve it.

She wants to dance a slow dance and drink in thoughts of true love from both washing over emotions.

Loving both in different ways, maybe in another world having nether.

Two Princes who stand ready for her.  Wanting only to run away from the cerebral and follow the heart.

Steam covers the mirror once more losing sight of herself.