So high
If I jumped
I might even reach the sky
Then come back and touch my toes
Those thoughts don’t reach me now
I am high as a kite
And light as a feather
I have broken free
From the shackles
They had bound
My hands and feet
I dug within
I found my strength
I have broken free
Don’t try to limit me
Not even the sky’s my limit
I can do anything
I have found someone
Always at my side
Even when I hid
In the darkness
Where His light does not go
Not without a plead
To be set free
An agreement to bow
At his feet
Where he lifts me up
I am so high
I could fill a balloon
Then still return before noon
I have found my freedom
He has given me the will
And the will is free
I accept it
I am tired of thoughts
That tell me I am worthless
The people that
Refuse to understand me
Who don’t want to
Properly meet me
So high
I feel I can fly
And return with a sigh
This landing is not permanent
The world is my oyster
And the heavens my pearl
He has claimed me
Back into his arms
I will float
It has always been my home
Even if for a short time
I chose a trashed motel
Hear my voice!
Can you hear the patter
Of my heart?
As he brings
It to a brilliant restart
Why settle for less?
When I can have the best
Hear me now
I need you forever
No matter what tries
To pull me away
You are my lifeline
And I refuse to ever let go
Hear these words
I am yours forever
So high
I hit the stratosphere
And continued farther to space
And made it my
Permanent home
But I will wait here
As He prepares my home there

Say you’re sorry
I know it was in the past
But the words you said today
They last and last
So abrasive
You called me a fool
And when I volley back
You said, “I am an adult
and you are a child.”
Well, you want some respect
Forget that
You told her you hit
And you get hit back
So what were your words
But a punch in the gut?
You tell me to get out
Of your face
No chance for me
To defend myself
You yell your loudest
Until I am lost in the sound
So I write this poem here
For a chance to speak
For a chance to defend myself
And you know the saddest part?
As in the past I will apologise
After I wipe tears from my eyes
And stew in the hurt from the fight
You will accept it
But no apology will be returned
Because you are the adult
And I am but a child
And everyone knows
That the parent never
Has to say they’re sorry
I’m sure that comes
From the Bible
But what about
I Timothy 4:12?
Maybe you should
Take a look
I’ll say it now
And later to you
I am sorry
I brought up the past
Like I said for me
It lasts and lasts
But you know the reason
The reminder still bothers you
Because you feel the guilt
So maybe I was wrong
But you were too
But the real difference
Between you and I
Age is an important number
But the real difference
Is I will say I'm sorry
And you..?

I am only eighteen
What do I know of love?
Never been kissed
Or known what it is like
To be so missed
That upon his return
I am swept into his arms
And he is so glad
That I did not fall to harm
In his absence
I may not know
The feelings that
Might appear
But that does not mean
I am naïve to these feelings
Slowly building inside of me
I see his face
And my heart begins to race
Some might call it a crush
Maybe so
I am in no rush
To discover if these feelings
Will be returned
Or if my heart will be stomped
And left to beat into dirt
I am not too young
To realize I might
Very well need him
And this first taste of love
Or just a fiery crush
It scares me
But despite my age
And the fear
I need to know
If this is love
Or just a young woman’s
Pathetic crush

I have a question
Do you love me?
I am sorry
That was dumb
When it gets late
Do you desire to hold me?
In your arms?
When you finally fall asleep
Am I the last face
You see in your mind?
Upon opening your eyes
In the morning
Am I like a flower blooming
Giving you reason to
Keep breathing?
If not
That is okay
I can not say  
I feel that way
This could be just
A cruel test
To get you to shout your love
And put my selfish heart at rest
Though those feelings to you
I do or do not return
Even so
Answer my first question
I need to know
When an invite says plus one
You already are dialing
Me at home
Where I may or may not
Anxiously wait by the phone
So kindly answer
When the rain beats down on your roof
Do you wish it was me?  
You were able to hold tight?
Because I may or may not desire
To hold you
When I catch a fright
Either way I need to know
The answer
To one question
Do you love me?
Please say yes
…and/or no

tellin’ me what you had to do
when right now i cant really care
speakin’ to me about what i have to do
how you went through this and that
when i have only experienced that
yeah, what you are doing is hard
but i did all this and it was harder
i know these things
but right now i
do not want to listen
i have lost my ability to comprehend things
I know it seems a lazy way to do things
but i am so tired
of doing things i know i have to do
if i want to be somebody
if i want to be able to be anybody
in this world
but right now
the wrong feelings of motivation are inside of me
there is no motivation inside of me
no one understands this side of me
this side wants to be alone
it does not want to answer the phone
it does not want to do things that will help in the long run
it only desires some short term fun
so leave a message
hopefully i will take a listen later
i will be willing to hear you out
i will not sit and pout as you spout
i have gone through this and that
together you say we could figure it all out
right now you need to understand
that it has all crashed over me
and the motivation has temporarily leaked outside of me
with the tide it will come back in
but right now
it seems so much easier without
remember i am sorry
for the angry things i may have mumbled or shouted
i know you care
but right now i am without a care in the world
or at least willing to hide from it
this poem is just the sum of it
know i love you
and one day
i will take your advice and my common sense
and i will make a difference
the world will be a better place
i will no longer be stuck stagnant
success and i are a magnet
the poles are just currently flipped
and push apart
but like what goes up comes down
i will turn one around
and all my judgement will once again become sound

“Okay, so I have this friend
And her boyfriend tells her
Many things
One of which
Include those three words:
I love you
But then he goes,
This boyfriend,
He kisses someone else
What should this friend do?”
I ask.

“That’s easy,” says the counselor.
Then she continues to say this:
Take this advice
Get some revenge
Give him a taste
Of that which he let go
Make it very clear
Let him know
That you,
I mean your friend,
Is something he will
Regret letting go

“Revenge?” I ask.

The counselor leans towards me
And continues to tell me this:
Yes, it is simple
Flatten his tires
Or cut all his brakes
Whatever you do
Make sure there is no proof
But a hot girlfriend
Who pretends to weep
And then says,
‘The last words he told me
They were,’
Make sure you,
I mean your friend,
Sniffles as she says all this
Then dramatically says,
‘I love you.’

“Thank you so much
Your advice has really helped me,
I mean,
My friend,”
I respond
With a glint
In my eyes.

Run and run
But never reach
The ending that
I have dreamt
Have seemed to live
Over and over in my head
It is you and me
No matter how
I primp and preen
Your eyes are drawn to see
Her and her and her
Ever heard?
The sound of my heart
Barely beating at it breaks
As you gaze
At her and her and her
Hey you!
Do not you feel?
The goosebumps I get
When you walk
By and "bye" I sigh
Standing unnoticed
You stare at her and her and her
Can not you smell?
The scent of my perfume
I put it on just
To possibly be noticed
Yet you breathe in the aroma
Of her and her and her
Do you taste that?
The flavor of my tears
They fall and fall
In a puddle right here
I am more
Than she will ever be
I was made for
Following you
My greatest asset in this war
After all
Is fair in love and
When cupid throws his bow
I am pointing his way
Love is in the air
You gaze through
The fog it creates
And feel the breeze of
Her and her and her
And never me