Passionate you are
But patience you do not seem to possess
You're not willing to accept
My heart, mind, and body
Are not yet ready
If we began it all now
I'm so afraid it will all be premature
Your lack of patience
Is so very immature
The way I see it
I am worth the wait
If we are meant to be, truly
Then we are worth the wait
So stop the clock
And when I am ready
Let it all go and we begin
In time you can see
What He has in store
Right now it seems so far away
But in the right frame of mind and time
So sublime

Open your eyes
And please begin
To see me clearly
Here I stand
In front
Of you
And only you

I'm willing to
Give it all
Or nothing at all
To you
And only you

Don't you realize
What this means?
Put simply
I'm in love
With you
And only you

Maybe memory
Is my biggest enemy
The hurt they caused
When a phrase I read
Causes me to pause
And remember the hurt within
That awful time when
I caused myself the most damage
Words that came out thoughtless and rude
But what hurts the most
Is the good memories always fade
While day by day
The bad are pressed into my mind
And somehow
I allow them to stay
I just want to forget
Even with the knowledge
That they had a part in who I am
Today
They have shaped me
Sometimes created self-hatred
But when it is all said and done
Maybe my greatest enemy
Is also my closest friend

Caught in the middle
It is where I find myself now
I love you
And I also love him
Why do you force me
Into a boxing match that I cannot win
Doesn't anyone care about me?
You say I cannot understand
The feud goes far beyond my bounds
Still I am in this collective net
Cut me free
Then you can speak of how
I will never understand
I have listened to enough
I know enough to know
I am caught in the middle
I am pulled taut
In a battle that is not my own
You dragged me in
To watch the punches fly
Sometimes I wish
I could shrivel and die
I love you both
Is that not enough,
Not okay?
I cannot chose just one
Because when it comes
Down to it
I am just a child
Stuck in the whirlwind
Of years of misplaced words
And anger I cannot agree is right
For either of you
So cut me free
And fight your own battles
And allow me
To have my own separate life

On A snowy day
My heart took flight
I am not sure
If those feelings that I felt
Were completely right
With love you may never know
One day
What you feel is so right
Then years later
Your soul and heart break apart
Then that love you knew
Is lost in the blizzard
You are left with a cold frozen heart
But on that snowy day
My heart took flight
No matter if the love would last
Or like the winter
Was only a season
To come in a flash
And cause awkward stumbles and firsts
Then move out of sight
Either way
That day I fell in love
And no matter
If I can know the probability that it will last
I choose to love
And be loved back
Because like winter
Among all the fright
There is beauty all around
And warmth to be found
Somewhere just beyond it all
So I choose love
However long it chooses me