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Jan 2014 sara

and

Jan 2014 sara

dean

and

we are the sacrilegious baptizing
saints, flinching away
from rosaries and counting
sidewalk cracks

Jan 2014 sara

sapped strength

Jan 2014 sara

dean

sapped strength

i slept alone, your
wrists were my hair. delilah
mine, i still love you.

Jan 2014 sara

11 january

Jan 2014 sara

dean

11 january

today the marsh
had a viking
funeral
              all the
trees and all
the brush floated
along in their
frozen beds of
ice
      the birds
sang in memoriam
and even from
behind the glass
we turned
                   our
heads away
                      i
wonder where you
are and whose
funeral you're
                          watching

redux of 5 january, riffing on the same theme, different ending. the real question is: will i ever write with punctuation again? the answer is likely no. here i go talking to myself again. goodnight.

Jan 2014 sara

Eating You Alive

Jan 2014 sara

C A

Eating You Alive

I'm so alone now in this shelter as a cocoon
Empty and unholy
Insecure and maybe moody
I'm so unafraid now I've turned my guilt into a blaze
As I rage against the enemies I create
Its the path of freedom in this miserable escape towards happiness

I wasn't particular about the things that I expected from you
Just obvious with the what and when and where and how but never with the why
I knew the secret rules of boundaries and respect
Silence is a way to watch it all or twist it all, or hide it all
Silence was the one time you fell apart when all the other times you weren't too far from Hercules
I am angry with you, patient with you
I can't lose sleep over it
I'll just cry in terror
You can just sit there careless
I guess its times like these when you realize the things you want
And the things you don't

I'm unhappy
At this very instant
But even most days I can muscle up the energy
I can focus on whats right and whats now and what can be
You can sit there drown in your solitude
because if you can't let it out and you won't let me in
Eventually the guilt from your kisses will be swallowed in acid
And the reaction of which will eat you alive

Jan 2014 sara

((and i can't wait to tell you that))

Jan 2014 sara

marina

((and i can't wait to tell you that))

a year ago
you told me
that i am
filled with
lightning

(i
finally
believe
you)

(( ))

Jan 2014 sara

Pestañas

Jan 2014 sara

Olga Valerevna

Pestañas

I tried to write a paragraph without a single pause
But every time I moved my hand the end was all I saw
And how would people understand what led to my demise
If I could not explain myself enough to recognize
Forgive me this - my lack of words, I must've just presumed
That anyone who knew me well would read between and through
It seems my haste in getting where I thought I'd never be
Has taken me precisely there and now I disagree
The spaces on the paper wait in hopes that I return
My mumbling is louder now, I still cannot discern
The lashes on my skin are matched with those upon my lids
I haven't written anything if you are reading this

eyelashes

Jan 2014 sara

longshot lover

Jan 2014 sara

Ben

longshot lover

i spent hours looking at engagement rings
trying to find the perfect one for you
imagining just how big your smile would be
when you found out it was true
best friends till the end and even then
our interests would carry on through
i'm living three years in the future
with love and best regards perfect pairs come in two