Never knew what alone was until now;
Living alone with decisions all hasty.
I am not afraid of being alone, because
Alone is what I know best.
No worries, because now I am prepared,
Prepared for my void to be set free for you.

I can make myself aware of your goodness
I have no fears because I believe in you
I want to show you how much I believe
Why do I need to worry?
I am running, but not away,
I am running towards you with belief.

This is my biggest test- the test of showing
You exactly how I will make my life different.
What happened is not what will happen.
My life has changed with you.
Love afar, to living a new life in a new place;
My change in life is my way to believe in you.

Chorus:
My heart is beating in pressure,
I could not believe that it is like
Forever never seeing you, again.

How long, never long ago
Can I really sit in alone
When I realized I was never alone.

Living in a rundown apartment
This is not my spot... I am not comfortable.
Bugs ruling the floor, rats taking over...
No way, I cannot live like this.
I been there before, and these things
Are gone free from me, because
I cannot live like this.

This is a joke...picking my clothes up from the
Water down faucets, just to see things floating
Things I am not interested in...
I am walking in the corner, and let me say
If my "friends" were waiting for me
It would rather be a better place.

Yes, I found a good friend...and he means so
Much to me, that those other ******* were
Passing phases in my life.
I cannot live like that; so, my hope is that
He is the one to share what life is,
Because all this other stuff is not good for me.

Chorus:
I am not a runner...i like run towards you,
There is more than people running from me.
I know I played a cat and rat race that force
Us to a new place, but it is not going to be
The same. How long can I live like this?

My hope is on nothing less than love.
Jerks and twerks are not my style.
******* and snitches do not go my way.
I live to learn... I am out and about
Not fearing who I love, because my heart
Does not lie to me.

I do not need anyone dictating my life
No whisper of hate and fear,
No lies and flies, just eat them walk on.
Those ***** are not my forte, and I care less
Who thinks my life is a mess up.
Think about it, I will love who I want to love.

I give chances those people who think
I am not a *****. Those people know how to get
Along with me, because I do not have to explain myself to him. I am happy to give my life to the one who knows my life without judgment. I live a crazy love for the one.

Chorus:
My crazy love is way more than
Who and where, it is the what and when.
Love does not deny a person his right
To the person who lives for change and
What is right, because love is right for you.

Heart torn?
Capture it!
Seal It!
Stop!

Free yourself!
Feel free!
Tear free!
Freedom!

Grace is Love
Have mercy!
Fountain of Life
Breathe of Life

Hope is Secure
Security finds;
Love finds;
Heart is Love

Like a lamb against a lion;
I can freely live my life
not too old, feeling young.
Yeah...I am excited to make
movements abound where
I can see where life takes me;
I do not have to worry about
troubles, even if they come,
because the power of God
healed me of my own dispositions.
This little lamb can lay silently
next to the lion whilst asleep.
Love is so beautiful; even the colors
brown and green work together
to make a beautiful landscape.
We worry about matching,
but God uses every single color in everything
He creates, making matching look like a silly game.

I do not have to worry about my well-being,
because my well-being will always be beautiful
in God's eyes when He created me.
You want to argue this; try loving a liar;
A liar has nothing but beauty in sight-
that sight is so dark, it is like the eyes were plucked out.
Do not count the wrong numbers;
follow the sequence, because you make lose
value where you stand; then the Devil will
seem to have made his move on you.
Living in God's way does not mean expecting God
to do our will- we have to remember,
God has His Will, we have our free will,
but when we are attested by God for something;
we must listen, because those words are far more important.

We can be young forever as long as we are comfortable
with God's Will in our lives; otherwise,
we are forced to purposely cause our own burdens-
re-enacting our own problems.
Why do anything on purpose?
We can just allow God to lead!
No matter what level of domain we live;
there is a master, but my master is not of the world.
Sometimes we have to risk everything for God,
because our reward is in Heaven.
But that does not mean that I have to be old
and tired; I am not too old, feeling young-
because God's Will happens to live freely
within my heart now, instead of fear and worry.

I won't disclose the person, for this person really went through
up battles, down drifts, uproars, crossroads, and
still I was left believing in him.
I doubted the day that I can admit my faults;
sanctifying the pressures of force and speed
was never truly a heartfelt proposition.
I have lost many games in my life;
but this person wanted me to win-
this person wanted me push forward-
drop the fears, anxieties, and plagues of thought-
moving one day at a time- allowing nature
to walk through its course with regard to life.
But more importantly, I have won in respect, honesty, and
shielding my life for another to take me with him.
I am talking about trusting a person to the degree;
the degree of footsteps and risks-
knowledge and wisdom to feel, heal, and glorify  
God in His Will!

Living in confusion, doubt, and all that dark energy
really caused fear in my life, but also other people.
I had to break my own heart so I can know how to heal;
That healing would be the love that I needed-
Want so powerful emotions; try taking a heart out of your body;
placing it on the table; turning it in-side-out,
just to realize that it was to begin with; and now,
add the burden of putting your body back together-
this is what my friend did to me-
There is no such thing as leaving room for the one
when the one is the only one who knows how to fix
the most important piece of a human's body function;
a person's heart is fragile; and he was the one who
did exactly what God promised He would send to do.
No, I did not know how, or the point,
but I sure did have to overcome huge pains and sufferings
in order to heal- allowing love to enter this divine space.

I no longer have to worry, because I am
believing in him- that those things were done
for good purpose.
My love is so much stronger; and I do not have to fear anything;
I do not have to fear time, space, force, or rejection,
because all those things combined would have not put
God, my best friend, and I on the same wavelengths
if it was not so that the one was not doctor enough
to fix this being of such harmful life dispositions.
I am just waiting, because I believe in him.
Just like God, He has provided my help that I need in my life;
I now can wait for what my heart can follow;
they say, the healer is best, because he knows what
the heart can handle; if so believing in him will do.

Sometimes I ask myself, why, what, when, and how?
Movements abound from one place to another;
no place is the same with me.
Then I come to realize my dreams;
I was tired of fighting the nightmares of the past.
I was really getting nowhere; actually,
Yes, I got somewhere- I found myself in the
dark valleys, strangled with vines of weeds
that had no purpose in my life.
Every time a promise was made, it be broken;
every time I try something, it be doomed;
every time I actually do something, a month later
it crashes to the floor, shattered to many pieces.
Like some kind of puzzle with many pieces.
I really needed peace within my self.
Is that too much to ask for?

Until I met the conquest of my life;
I made a deal with God a year later;
my promise to God was to show me
someone who knew how to end this nightmare;
break down my barriers- **** my fears, and save me;
I will do what it is that is your will.
I got more than I bargained for, because
in secret I was rejecting myself from opportunity;
and than the question was asked to me,
Do you love me?  I have rejected myself again
in fear that I would be rejected, but I would push away
my friend; and yet, believing in me-
the pressure was on- I had to overcome this fear.

My life was in the dark- it was cursed by evil thoughts;
I was suffering in secret; and God provided someone to
shine light on this- and it was hard for us both.
God had to use every bit of Heavenly power he could use
to wake me up; and in the end- all I needed was someone
believing in me.
My friend, very good- pushes me into the light of day;
Wow...my eyes were so blind by the darkness;
My fears really were much harder than I realized.
He believes in me; and knew that with help;
the puzzle pieces could be put back together.
I just realized why I broke the picture;
I did not want love in my life;
and I saw that the one in the picture is
the one who was helping me along the way.
He was not giving up on me.
I thought he would, because I wanted him to,
but the heart wins over any other voice.
Now I know that he is good;
and he is believing in me.