samuel hdz: Poems

samuel hdz May 2014

In all honesty...
sometimes it gets hard to deal.
I get tired of walking around thinking I'm the man of steel.
Every now and then I can't seem to carry all these emotions that I feel.

The armor starts cracking, and I see it.
My smile fades.
The hope in my eyes turns into despair. The degrees of warmth in my heart start to drop.
Then the armor shatters!
I'm left sad, disillusioned, heartless.

Consumed with insanity.
My soul struggles to keep my body intact, as it desperately tries to pick up the shattered pieces of my armor.
Like a child trying to pick up the pieces of a broken toy.

Yet, I don't die or go completely mental.
I've just fallen.
I need to pick myself back up.

Ahhhh!!!!!

they came as a pair, and i lost them both

samuel hdz Nov 2012

they came as a pair, and i lost them both

Hey little man! Havent text you in a while, my bad. I have a really big day tomorrow and texting you might not come as easily as i would like it to in the future. I haven't forgotten that i owe you fifty bucks you might get those and something else for christmas. I miss kicking it with you sammy. You turned out to be one of the coolest kids ive ever met. I kinda got attached to you, And the fact that you had my name made you that much cooler. So if i dont text you back in the future know that it's not because you're not totally awesome but because i couldnt Match your awesomeness. This might sound totally gay kid, but i kinda love you... hahaha.. that sounded totally gay. Play some sports, hit on some girls and behave at school. I'll see when you're grown up.

This was for my ex's kid. I became a total sucker for the him. So now its more about missing seeing him grow up.

this time its for me

samuel hdz Apr 2013

this time its for me

I left because you wanted me gone.

I love you!

I came back for you.

but...

I left my thoughts in Immokale.

I left my drive in Lehigh.

My inspiration is scattered over the waters of Ft. Myers beach.

My plans wait in South beach.

Orlando, Tampa bay, and Fort Lauderdale still whisper my name.

It's time to go back to the sunshine state.

thoughts of another sleepless night

samuel hdz Nov 2012

thoughts of another sleepless night

I can't loose focus. I've managed to move forward in some endeavors. Yet you make me less stable less clever. If I could just let you go for the remainder of my stay. So I fight the urge to contact you and speak to you. Your voice makes me weak. You're everything that I should just leave alone and never seek. the promises made seemed so genuine. It's hard to believe that this was all just another step towards my destiny. You were my rage, but at most points you were the better of me. So as I stay here and try to make sense of this all. You were never for me. you were never mine not even a little bit actually not at all. The love that was spilled was in vain. This was all just an over whelming attraction. stumbled upon to test and **** with my brain.

trying

samuel hdz Nov 2012

trying

I am a monster, I am a beast. I will set out in search to find what I want to be. I must keep the rage that started this transformation. I must not get complacent. Things will get better and my future Burns brighter than ever. keeping my focus is key. But them again you, your eyes, your lips, and your smile get the better of me. But you want time and in all reality that only helps me. So don't miss me don't love me pretend that you feel nothing for me cause when you do. I'll just be a better person and the one that got away.

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samuel hdz Mar 2013

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Stop invading my thoughts!
You dont want me and I know.
Why do these memories of you and me kissing so slow play in my head?
Others have crossed this path.
Yet memories of that fade and dont last.
*******!
Not for doing this to my body.
But for infesting my brain.
You came with Babbage which....
only a selfless soul could claim.
game that flowed because it came so naturally.
Definitely got the better of me.
*******.
Why didn't you just let me keep my stride.
I was better off alone.
Than with you and the kid on my mind.
Now its not even about you.
I just dont want people to treat him like hes a must cause he comes with a beauty like you.
*******.
You're hurting him without knowing.
And you're killing me consciously.
*******!
for making me want it to be just the kid you and me.

It's not always about the person you fall in love with!

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samuel hdz Dec 2014

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Long gone from the times, but better times have passed. Kick in the ***. I'm old thus this is my classic. days like this don't exist. Enjoy the trip and the feeling. Soul just at ease and healing. Chill a while,
reality drags

worthless read. .

samuel hdz Dec 2013

worthless read. .

Sedated....
life... I.s...........
unreal. .....

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