For all the hate!!!!
For all the love.....
Pettiness aside.
I accept.
That's just the kind of person I am.

In all honesty...
sometimes it gets hard to deal.
I get tired of walking around thinking I'm the man of steel.
Every now and then I can't seem to carry all these emotions that I feel.

The armor starts cracking, and I see it.
My smile fades.
The hope in my eyes turns into despair. The degrees of warmth in my heart start to drop.
Then the armor shatters!
I'm left sad, disillusioned, heartless.


Consumed with insanity.
My soul struggles to keep my body intact, as it desperately tries to pick up the shattered pieces of my armor.
Like a child trying to pick up the pieces of a broken toy.

Yet, I don't die or go completely mental.
I've just fallen.
I need to pick myself back up.

Paradise can be a bad thing sometimes, to much serenity and you start to loose focus.
I need to revisit those feelings of heartache, anger, and despair.
To much time has passed and I am getting lost in the surreal.
I came to find peace and in that search I realized that it hinders me.
So I go back to the times I prayed to forget.
At peace building the rage!

Through this soul searching
I have no inspiration
need a muse to help.

My home town. You have brought me great memories of friends, family, and girls I've chased around.
I  also have memories of too many drunken nights, fist fights, heart ache and total self destruction.
the bad memories outweigh the good.
So it is with a heavy heart that I must leave you behind.
not to worry.
you wont miss me or even notice my departure.
Here's to a second shot at something.

Sedated....
life... I.s...........
unreal. .....