I can't loose focus. I've managed to move forward in some endeavors. Yet you make me less stable less clever. If I could just let you go for the remainder of my stay. So I fight the urge to contact you and speak to you. Your voice makes me weak. You're everything that I should just leave alone and never seek. the promises made seemed so genuine. It's hard to believe that this was all just another step towards my destiny. You were my rage, but at most points you were the better of me. So as I stay here and try to make sense of this all. You were never for me. you were never mine not even a little bit actually not at all. The love that was spilled was in vain. This was all just an over whelming attraction. stumbled upon to test and **** with my brain.

Need a distraction.
A body gets the *******
**** it! One more rep...

Estas alas se forjaron a partir de la esperanza de que el universo me dio cuando estábamos juntos. Con la estructura de la persistencia y las plumas de la Esperanza. Pero como Ícaro y sus alas improvisadas, Las mías no estaban destinas para sobrevivir para siempre. El tiempo ha estado actuando como el sol. A pesar de que lucho para volver a lo que en un tiempo fuimos . Elevándome a través de innumerables erupciones solares me doy cuenta de que mis plumas se están desvaneciendo, pero mi estructura no lo es. Sin embargo, la persistencia no me mantendrá en el cielo. tarde o temprano caerá. Llegando a tus labios o al haber perdido toda mi esperanza.

I am a monster, I am a beast. I will set out in search to find what I want to be. I must keep the rage that started this transformation. I must not get complacent. Things will get better and my future Burns brighter than ever. keeping my focus is key. But them again you, your eyes, your lips, and your smile get the better of me. But you want time and in all reality that only helps me. So don't miss me don't love me pretend that you feel nothing for me cause when you do. I'll just be a better person and the one that got away.

There is never an end to anything, only a beginning to something. Not necessarily better or good. That all depends on you. To strive above all that life throws at you or be consumed by the ******* and drown. The choice is yours and that alone should propel anyone to strive. Yet I still find myself at the beginning....

I haven't addressed you in a while, only because I thought you had left me for dead.  Little did I know that regret had infected your veins, made you loose sleep, and let you experience some of My pain. with your remorse you bring me back to this place that was filled with more turmoil than love. You Made my blood boil only to watch my happiness spoil. Yet I did love thee more than words can express. How else could I have ended up this this intricate, drunk, and heartless? Understand that I don't want this for you but karma had your number.

As you looked up at me with that sinful smile. In a Drunken daze, I couldn't help but be reminded that your venom is beautiful, sweet, but vile. I  respectfully responded with a grin which was more of a ” **** it, i'm inn”. So I took the leap into semi conquered territory only to relive these emotions again like that first time. Once again I fell only to realize that you don't harbor the same emotions i'm which I dwell. What is it with these typical save me chicks and the casting of their spell? It has to be the subconscious smell of her pheromones that throw me for a loop. Yet you test my might. You and I, nothing alike but so compatible.