Samara

Samara Sep 2022

if only

they had reached out.
if only i knew
how much they were hurting.

i would've listened
i would've ~been there~
for them

if only they listened
if only they could see
how much the world has
been weighing down on me

when i lettered them:
-Hello-

Samara Sep 2022

another part 2

it's over,
it's done
there's nothing left
to be won
there's nothing left
to say
to make anything
okay.

some problems need a permanent solution.
a permanent solution to a permanent problem
and that's all it's been

lost my way
somewhere along the way
when i met you

you wanted to follow me
i tried to stop you
i shouldve stopped you.

maybe its a union
for you to be humbled.

whatever it is,

it's over,
it's done.
there's nothing left.
to be won.

Samara Sep 2022

anagram

listen
be silent
- - -
it's no wonder
we never relent

Samara Sep 2022

worth less

i cant remember
the last time i had
something worth
- - -
remembering

Jan 2022

asya

I Watched Days Go By In Seconds

For a while,
happiness was an issue
I ignored.

For a while, I laid in bed
Fell asleep in the morning,
woke in the evening,
and days became seconds,
and my summer was gone.

Winter has been going by
in such record time,
that these days I don't even bother checking my watch.

Samara Jan 2022

nightmare

my hot coffee, now cold
everything feels, so old
pushing, perservering
why? when we're all perishing

i feel nothing
but the world
on my shoulders
it's gone, all the gold
and all the wonders
- - -
i know i should care
but nothing seems to matter
and i'd much rather
be looking down
at the same nightmare

Samara May 2021

it's over pt. 2

it’s over
it’s done
there’s nothing left
to be won
not for me
but maybe for you

i'm back home now
in the abyss
where i cant be
how you want me to be
and you can never see
how much it’s hurting me

so what is there left to do?
nothing else until I’m through.
maybe then you can visit me
with a hand full of peonies