i want it to stop
this round-a-bout
i'm in
i believe friends cure all wounds
what if you only have five?
i won't be fine
i wish to die
sometimes
i wish to live
sometimes
so off i go
to happiness

i'm getting dizzy from your downward spiral
your making me spin out of control
i want out
freedom
but your arms are entwined into mine
having locked me to you
but, i now longer love you
to be honest i never did
i want to make beautiful things
magical, intelligent art
and you give me so much inspiration
but i would rather be a dead poet
than to continue my life
-or whatever god would call his creation that is me-
with you
goodbye..

i see light coming
i'm beating the monsters inside
the birds are alive and humming
i have tried
and i have found sweet joy
in the things life can offer me
i am done with your games and toys
to all of you, i am free
your ropes no longer bind me, i tell
or will they ever again
because i am free of this personal hell
cause the only hell i deserve now is that of freshmen

the light reaches me, deep down here
stop and listen
i stop and leer
i hear the sound of monsters i have beaten
blonde, bruised, confused
i run away
amused

the dark days of my past are gone
they disappeared with the feeling of me caring
of me wishing it could all stop
be careful for what you wish for
it might come true
but i learned, not to push my luck

i choose to read
not a thought of doubt
when i make up my mind
to grow and to learn
ever does bind

but i did not choose this
my insane life
no i did not
but i would not sell it ever
and no one would buy

let me be
never mind-bending me
just let me breathe
beautiful life

i'm just a lonely girl
my stomachs full of curls
my search just started
i'll search to the end
just to see your smile
i'd walk a thousand miles
just to hear you talk
on sharp rocks, i would walk
because there is no way
other than confessing it to you as i may
in saying that i love you

i saw you today
i smiled and stopped to
talk
but all you did was continue to walk
not a glance, or even a thought
was given
i could feel a break
either in the universe
or in
me
no, it was in me
my weak, frail heart snapped
no, stopped
i can't breathe
but who can save me?
you don't love me
you don't even
bother a smile
back to the darkness i go
back into the love-less world
without my
one and only

i sit here
my mind goes numb
you tend to leer
my mind goes dumb
i smile so slyly, but shyly
and feel as confused as one can feel
your smile is not as highly
but, to my heart, your smile does deal
i see you walking briskly to class
i fall through the darkness
"do you like me?" i long to ask
but your answer would **** me, like a knife of high sharpness
i can't..i just won't
now i'm just a longing willow tree
but you? please don't
cut down my needs
because i'm not going to continue to grow
when this game is over
i'll just go
just like the wind will blow