6:17 AM on a careless Saturday morning
I roll over in my bed to write about
Another sleepless night.
I spent thinking of you.

I thought we had a future, and
I can't help but fantasize because
You're everything I ever wanted
And all I'll ever need...

But you're gone now, and happy in the new place you're in...
And I'm sitting all alone...
You want to be friends...but
Sometimes sitting right across from you now

All I can do is realize how alone I really am...
Because the person there...she
Isn't going to cuddle and kiss my pain away like she used to.
She doesn't want to touch me anymore.

I wish I knew how to make you come back to me...
But only father time knows if you will.
I want you to know how I feel though...
These feelings are almost too great to bear.

But I'll spend these sleepless nights
Wondering if you'll be there.

You
Complete
Me...

I just feel like
You're going to think its really weird
My desires to hug you
And hold your hand
And cuddle

I just feel like
You're going to get upset with me
And push me away again
And run off with her
I'm afraid

I'm hurt too
I needed you and I need you
But not exactly in the ways you're accepting to
I feel like I'm going to **** you off...
You don't need me anymore...

You don't want me anymore...

I was misplaced,
Until you picked me up.
But things changed.
You dropped me like a rock.
I am once again,
Seeking a home.
I really liked yours.
You've become home to me.
But you promised me when you dropped me,
That I'll never get to come home.

I'm stuck.

I want to be your partner.
The kind of partner that calms you when you're sad
And further cheers you when you're already happy.

I want to be your life.
I want to be the reason you wake up.
Something that makes you happy.

I want to be your friend, too.
You were my best friend. I naturally open up to you.
But I'm afraid too, and I'm hurt too, and well, you weren't very mindful of my feelings...

I want to be your desire again.
I know you needed someone, and...well,
I know she treats you well. I know you're happy with her. But I really do feel replaced...

I want to be your comfort.
I try my best. I'll never stop trying.
But I can't ignore my feelings...

I wanted to go slow too...
To start, just be friends...
But you turned on me. You lost all your respect for me...when I needed you most.

It hurts to see you with someone else.
Please, put yourself in my shoes...
I don't hate you for what you've done...I just wish you hadn't.

"You treated her like **** and now she found a lover who can actually please her."
"You think you have problems, kid? Life is going to kick you square in the teeth."
"You dwelling and acting like this is just going to make you lose more friends."
"Don't blame your life for your problems. A weak man does that."
"I've already stated my problem, since she left you, you've been acting like an obsessed creep, whether or not you are or not, you've been acting like one."
"You're acting creepy and obsessed."
"It's getting old now. It's been months."
"So you think I was being a ****? I haven't even said half of what I could have."

's right
Your mom was too
So was your stepdad
So were you
Please go back to a month ago
Don't change your mind
I'm awful
Tell everyone so they know
I don't want anyone else getting hurt by me
I'm a monster