You are so sweet
We're all addicted to sweet
As people...
But maybe it's time
I go on a diet
That I learn to cut back
But my sweet tooth
It yearns for you

You've been a roller-coaster
So much fun
But so many ups and downs
But so many downs
You've gotten off
But I'm still on
Reliving the drop
Over and over

I'm not sweet
Like you
I don't know how sometimes
To be sweet
But maybe it's time I learn
I just hope I don't
Make everyone sick
Overdoing it

Full and empty, is what I am.
Full of feelings, but empty space
You occupied my heart...gave it new life
Then tore the wallpaper right off the walls

Full of anxiety
I can not breathe
The room is spinning, and I didn't do anything this evening
It's going to be long night

Maybe I should check into a hospital

It's like I'm breathing all the smoke
When the house is on fire

Do you remember when I called you
The best medicine for my headaches?
The cure for my pain?

I almost forgot myself

Why do you describe it as
Only being in love
Or not being in love
What is "in love" anyway
It took you a while to fall in love before
Why would I expect you to ever
Fall in love with me again
But after the stories, trust, and promises we shared
And after what I did to you, I only expected you
To let a newly planted seed grow

I'm not in love with you
I love you
There's a difference when I told you
I was in love with you
And that I'll always love you
They aren't the same thing
And the reason I said
I could spend my life with you
Is not because of the things
Only a ****** could offer
But what's up in your head

Falling in love
Is something kids do
Before they understand
Why grandparents put up with each other
For 50 long years
And why married couples
Talk about their spouse
As their best friend, because they vowed to love forever
You were that kind of a companion to me
Your company was what mattered, your existence on earth
I wish I could have gotten it through your head

You didn't have to change a thing

Thump
Thump
Thump
Is what my heart is doing right now

Thump
Thump
Thump
Goes the headache I have

Thump
Thump
Thump
Is the rhythm of my life

Thump
Thump
Thump
Is what my head did into the wall way too many times

Thump
Thump
Thump
Is the definition of my life

Thump
Thump
Thump
Defined by The Free Dictionary
              "The muffled sound produced by or as if by a blow with a blunt object"

Thump
Thump
Thump
Is what my soul did when you dumped it by the wayside

Thump
Thump
Thump
I am the blunt object that hit you
Like kicks in the shins
Over and
Over and
Over until
You couldn't
Stand up

If one word
Could describe me
It would be
Thump

Sent you some messages
Hope you read them
Slowly and thoughtfully

I was okay for a bit
Ate my dinner,
A nice light salad

Thought I was okay
Until a horrible pain
Came over my chest

The anxiety unbearable
My heart it trembles
I can't even breathe

I don't know why I love you
But I can't stop
Though I pretend to

I'm tired of pretending
I'm living a lie
You don't love me

You never will love me
I don't know what
I'm good for, anymore

Why is it that
When I puked it up a minute ago
All I could think of

Are people less fortunate
Than me that deserved
That meal instead of me