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May 2015 · 444
Human nature
S May 2015
Petals fall to the
  Ground, dead and dreamless and lost
Shameful existence
May 2015 · 421
Numb
S May 2015
Here in solitude
   I watch rain fall in crimson
Apathy consumes
S May 2015
I pick petals off
  Brown flowers as the charcoal
Clouds hide the sun, I'm
   Lost in endless corridors
Filled with whispers of nothing
Tanka
Jul 2014 · 500
Storms.
S Jul 2014
Thunder claps
Lightning strikes a tree
That grows in the forest of my heart
The storm in me rages
It cannot be tamed
It cannot be controlled
You are so beautiful
And my storm will destroy you
You are so beautiful
And my storm will hurt you
You are so beautiful
Run
Jul 2014 · 342
You're still here.
S Jul 2014
This isn't working
This isn't working
This isn't working
I drank a bottle of *****
And all I could think about
Was how you said you loved
The smell of vanilla
And how I wore vanilla perfume
Everyday for a year
I'm not supposed to remember you
Years have passed
And you were supposed to have
Been fried from my brain
Like the rest of my memories
I'm so tired
I don't want this
Please
I'm so ******* tired
S Jul 2014
I am alone
I am alone
  I am alone
   I am alone
    I am alone
     ALONE
I am in love
I am in love
  I am in love
   NO
I will be alone
I will never love
I will not become weak
      SURVIVE.
S Jul 2014
I never knew I could feel like this
For once I'm free
I take a cigarette
And push it into my skin
There is no pain
I feel no pain
I'm falling
And it doesn't hurt
I'm bleeding
And it doesn't hurt
For once I'm alive
For once I can breathe
As I fall down
Tumbling from the moon
Back to earth
I catch on fire
There is no pain
I am alive
I am free
S May 2014
I shake and I shiver
My eyes are covered
Blindness
Tears fall from my eyes
Hot, hot tears
Blood is dripping
It falls from everywhere
My brain is fuzzy
Numb
Oh god, not again
I feel it
The pain in my chest
My heart
The swelling
The aching
Oh god not again
Gravity pulls me towards
The infinite nothing
Of a sad, sad forest
Here I will spend forever
Oh god not again.
May 2014 · 304
Rambling
S May 2014
Please
Please
Please
Give me what I want
Tease me
Leave me alone
Never go away
I need you
I hate you
I can't make up my mind
I'm falling
May 2014 · 293
No, no, no
S May 2014
No, no, no.
This is so wrong.
You move my hair out of the way,
And place your lips on my neck.
No, no, no.
You touch me,
And I shutter.
No, no, no.
This is wrong, wrong, wrong.
Now you worship me,
You would kiss the ground I step on.
But no, no, no.
This is wrong.
But *******,
It feels right, right, right.
Jun 2013 · 814
Fog
S Jun 2013
Fog
These places
These events
These things
Cloud my mind
And the fog won't let up
This thick fog,
Full of narcissism and anger,
Reek of *******
That tries to hide me from beauty
The beauty of the thought that I could actually
  be my own person some day.
Jun 2013 · 500
Imaginary Bombs
S Jun 2013
Explore my mind
Plunge deep within
To each and every corner
Find the horrid,
Disgusting,
*****-inducing
Thoughts that run destructivly thought my mind
See the sickening things that makes up the person
Known as me
Jun 2013 · 371
Caught Up part 2
S Jun 2013
I thought you could make it out
But you couldn't
You didn't even try
Now you're forcing the same terrible fate
That was forced upon you
You're drowning others
With false beauty and fool's gold
You've lost your chance
You let it slip
Right between your fingers
Jun 2013 · 1.0k
The day
S Jun 2013
You walk in the door
It's a normal day
You're lips turn upward
In the smallest of smiles
Your heart is racing
Your thoughts are going everywhere
This is the day
This is the day you've been waiting for
This is it
This is the day you ****
Today you **** everyone
Your inner psychopath comes out
You pull out your gun
And you shoot
Until there's no one left
Then you take yourself
Because you think that's what your supposed to do
You were crazy
A crazy person with a gun
A gun you should've never had
But the gun didn't **** the people
You did
May 2013 · 375
A book perhaps?
S May 2013
I've been thinking
That maybe I should write a book
A novel
But then I say to myself,
"No, you can't do that."
"You're thoughts go all over the place."
"You have to be focused to write a book."
"You're not focused."
"You can't even focus yourself long enough,"
"to keep you sane."
Yeah, I'm not going to write a book
Or a novel
I have to work
On my sanity first.
May 2013 · 706
The "S" Words
S May 2013
My legs are smooth.
My arms are smooth.
My lips are smooth.
My personality is smooth.
Smooth and sly
Like James Bond as a cat.
I can steal too
Like the man who stole the moon.
With my specialties
I could easily take you over.
I could sneak up behind you,
Like a sly, sly dog,
Trick you with the smoothness of me,
And steal everything you own,
Including your heart.
I guess you could say
I'm just that sneaky.
May 2013 · 516
What?
S May 2013
I'm stumbling
I'm grabbing things
I'm trying to hold
But I can't
I'm falling

What's happening?

I look to my left
I see you
With that sinister smirk of yours
I look to my right
I see me wearing the same expressin

Who are you?

There's bugs crawling all over me
They bite my eye sockets
The skies open up
God looks down and says,
" I hate you, you ***** *****. "

Why me?
May 2013 · 471
Did I hurt you yet?
S May 2013
I think I've finally done it
I think I've finally hurt you
Like you've hurt me

You said, "Let's go to the bathroom."
I said, "Wait, let me get drunk first."

You said, "I really miss hanging out with you."
I said, "I miss not being sober."

You said, "I want to be more than your friend."
I said, "I want to get more ****** up."

I think I've finally hurt you
Because now you know that
You've made me so disgusted with myself
That I can't be around you or me
Sober.
May 2013 · 5.6k
Perverted
S May 2013
This world is perverse
Sickos run everything
People feed their hungers
With the most immoral things
****
Whips
Pain
******
Hating
Killing
It's sick
Disgusting
Perverted
It seems as if
No one can control themselves
Anymore.
May 2013 · 346
Just for a little while
S May 2013
It's too much
I'm not dealing with your *******
  I'm going to block you out
   I'm going to escape this place
    I'm going to forget everything
     Just for a little while
      I'm going to be numb
       I'm going to be happy
        Just for a little while
May 2013 · 379
Oh to be high
S May 2013
It's beautiful
The numbness
The perfection
Of it all
Of everything
It's so beautiful
How much better the music sounds
How much better the food tastes
How much better your mind feels
Oh it's perfect
Glorious
Wonderful
Amazing
Beautiful
Now look at me
I'm flying
May 2013 · 810
The soul of Kurt
S May 2013
Kurt Cobain
Well-known name
Well-known face
Well-known voice
Well-known story
But
Not a well-known soul
A smart,
Intelligent,
Determined,
Self-hating soul
A sad, sad soul
Who's pain and anger and sadness
Caused him to make the most permanent decision
A person can make.
May 2013 · 905
Just dreaming
S May 2013
One day you walk in
Tight, light jeans
Flip-flops
T-shirt that goes against the Establishment
Your eyes sparkle
The corners of your lips turn upward
You stare
Our eyes meet
You come closer
You hold me tight
You push my long, black hair out of my face
Our eyes meet again as you stroke my face
With delicate fingers
You slowly lean in
Our lips touch
And fireworks go off
Then black
Nothing but sheer black
And I remember
That you're not real
That I was just dreaming
May 2013 · 339
Caught up
S May 2013
You're lost
You're in too deep
You got caught up
They've drowned you
In their false beauty
Swim out
Keep going
You can make it out
Get out
While you've still got the chance
May 2013 · 399
Places
S May 2013
I lay here
In the dark
Dreaming of a place
Where the good reign
And the bad aren't real
I dream of a place
Where all the children run around
With full bellies and a genuine smile
I dream of a place
Where love is love
No matter what kind
But I tuck that dream
Back in the deep corners of my brain
And slip back into reality
Only to find the opposite place
May 2013 · 511
This "Beautiful" World
S May 2013
I've come to see
The beauty in the world
The birds
The skies
The seas
It's wonderful
Glorious
Beautiful
But there's something evil underneath
The war
The crime
The poverty
It's ugly
Hideous
Horrid
But I suppose
That beauty is in the eye
Of the beholder
May 2013 · 342
Sick
S May 2013
Help me
Someone
Anyone
Help me
I'm sick
I can't think
I can't sleep
I can't breathe
My head hurts
My stomache aches
My brain's fried
I'm hungover
I'm withdrawn
I'm crashing
Someone help me
Help me
Pick me back up again
May 2013 · 4.6k
Tall
S May 2013
I stand tall
I am big
I am strong
I am the Eiffel Tower
The Statue of Liberty
The Great Wall
I stand tall
Taller than you all
I am big
I am strong
Because I know my flaws
May 2013 · 1.1k
Their looks
S May 2013
I hate the way
Some people look at me
Like I'm some disgusting thing
Like the sight of me makes them want to puke
Out all their narrow-minded, egotistical leftovers
They look at me like I'm some unknown creature
From deep within the most taboo places
They look at me like I'm a
Disgrace
Disappointment
*****
*****,
Filthy,
Disgusting
****-up
But maybe they have every right
To look at me that way.
Apr 2013 · 641
I can't trust myself
S Apr 2013
I can't trust myself around them
I know I turn into a monster
  Or something even worse
I can't trust myself around you
  I know I'd either *******
   Or ****** you
I can't trust myself around me
I know I just think about the bad things
  And make myself go insane.
Apr 2013 · 385
Do things to me
S Apr 2013
I want you
To do
So many things to me
I want you to breathe me in
Like I'm the summer air
I want you to stare at me
Like I'm actually beautiful
I want you to hold my hand
Like it was made to fit
I want you to kiss me
Like I taste like candy
I want you **** me
Like I'm an animal
I want you to love me
Like you actually care
Apr 2013 · 357
Please go back
S Apr 2013
I'm sitting here
At the foot of my bed
On my hands and knees
Praying to a god I don't even believe in
I'm praying
I'm yearning
I'm hoping
For everything to be right again
For everything to be like it used to be
I've missed it all
So much
Please god
If you're up there
Let it all go back
To how it used to be
Apr 2013 · 325
Can't escape
S Apr 2013
Everything's spinning around me
I'm fading into the dark
I'm trembling
I'm sobbing
I'm screaming
I'm biting my bottom lip so hard
That it bleeds
I can't escape this hell
I can't escape myself
No matter how hard I try.
Mar 2013 · 288
Used to it
S Mar 2013
They've hurt me so much
They've torn me down
Beat me up
And ****** on what was left
But now,
I've gotten so used it
I can't feel it anymore
All I do now is lay there
And wait for someone to give
The final blow
Mar 2013 · 463
One more sip
S Mar 2013
There's a pounding in my temples
A burning in my throat
A gnawing at my stomach
It's happening again
This feeling of misery
I can't take it
I take one more sip
And slip into numbness
Mar 2013 · 846
Beautiful Lands
S Mar 2013
I want to go to Wonderland
I want to drink tea with the Mad Hatter
I want to talk with the Cheshire cat
I want to take down the Red Queen

I want to go to Neverland
I want to swim with the mermaids
Run with the Indians
Fly with the Lost Boys

I want to fly away
Just you and me
I want to create a new land
The most magnificent one ever made
Mar 2013 · 323
One big mess
S Mar 2013
Look around you
Look at what we've all created
The war
The crime
The poverty
The hate
So much hate
Where's the peace?
The morals?
The riches?
The love?
Where did it all go?
Look at our world
Look at the mess we've created
Mar 2013 · 323
Come with me
S Mar 2013
Come with me
We're gonna drive
Drive far, far away
Just you and me
We've burned bridges in this place
We've been hurt in this place
So tell me:
Why stay?
Mar 2013 · 415
I'm not you
S Mar 2013
I'm not you're slave
I'm not dress up doll
I have my own views
My own opinions
My own beliefs
I have my own hopes
My own goals
My own dreams
I make my own mistakes
Make my own choices
My own descisions
I'm not a mini you
I'm sorry
Mar 2013 · 322
Dear God
S Mar 2013
Where'd you go?
I thought you were supposed to help us
Why is so terrible down here
There's so much fear
So much hate
Did we all **** up in another life
Is this the Hell
You said you would condemn us to?
Mar 2013 · 671
To Robert
S Mar 2013
You're a quiet one I bet
One who keeps to himself
One who looks at the nightmares
That haunt your past
We're different
You and I
Different pasts
Different personalities
Different souls
But we are equal in greatness
We feed off each others words
And help each other be the poets we can be.
This ones for you Robert. Hope you like it :)
Mar 2013 · 397
Setting up
S Mar 2013
I'm setting my myself up for this
Whenever you call
I could let it go to voicemail
Whenever you text
I could not reply
Whenever you ask to hang out
I could say no
But I dont
I can't say no to you
I'm just setting myself up
For all this hurt
Mar 2013 · 456
Firsts
S Mar 2013
In bright lights of the halls
Was the first time I met you

Under the raging sun
Was the first time we kissed

Covered in the blanket of night
Was the first time we gave each other all

In the blink of an eye
Was when I lost you
To her
Mar 2013 · 341
Time To Go
S Mar 2013
It's time
Time for me to leave
I'll pack a bag
Of my few belongings
I'll stand on the side of the road
Stick my thumb out
And hope I don't get killed
I'll keep riding until I reach my destination
I'll change my name
Dye my hair
Change everything about me
I'll live my new life
The good life
The free life
Here in this unknown place
That I'll soon call home
Mar 2013 · 559
Tell me how
S Mar 2013
Look at her
Straight, autumn hair
Glowing blue eyes
Cute, heart-shaped face
Small, tiny waist
Nice, big ***
Perky little ****
She's beautiful
On the outside
And even more inside
Her humor
Her kindness
Her determination
Her real ness
Look at her
And then look at me
And answer this question:
How the **** am I supposed to compete
With that?
Mar 2013 · 293
What matters
S Mar 2013
I've missed this
The loud music
The wind blowing in our faces
The sense of not caring
Not caring about tomorrow
Or the next day
Only knowing
That this
Is what matters
What really matters is
Now
Mar 2013 · 2.7k
Connected
S Mar 2013
I don't know you
You don't know me
We don't know each other
Yet we do
Somehow,
Some way,
We are connected.
Mar 2013 · 411
Don't trust me
S Mar 2013
Don't listen to me
Don't believe a thing I say
I will lie to you
I will trick you
I will manipulate you
I will ******* over
I will do anything
To try and keep you
Mar 2013 · 289
Do I matter at all to you?
S Mar 2013
How could you?
You just keep using me
   Like I don't even matter
    Like I don't even have feelings
     You keep using me
       What am I to you?
         Am I anything?
           No?
            Alright then
              Looks like I wasted my time
Mar 2013 · 447
Cold
S Mar 2013
I lie here
In this godforsaken place
It's cold
It's so, so cold
Cold like the hearts
Of the people here
Please
Wrap me up
And take me away
Take me away to
Where it's warm
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